The Dreams In Which I'm Dying Are The Best I've Ever Had.

[fallingracefuly]

So...if I could have a bit of self-confidence that'd be cool. Maybe then I'd get the balls to actually approach someone of the opposite sex. Seriously. I'm so scared to get turned down that I won't even look in their general direction. I'm pathetic.
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I was walking back from the football game today and I was freezing to no end. Beth was

Comments

[lawhora]

I'm gonna sound like an idiot saying it, but a watched pot never boils. Stop looking and stressing and it will happen, for serious. Be confident. Be yourself. Realize that someday none of this will matter. :)

[fallingracefuly]

ARGH. I hate it though! It's extremely hard. I want a kiss or something.

[lawhora]

I'll kiss you...

too soon? sorry.

[fallingracefuly]

LOL. I ♥ Laura.

And yes, much much much too soon. Sorry. You blew your chance. *shrug* XDD

*sympathizes*

[deniedmsi]

I completely undersand. It's frightening for me though, that desperate need for some sort of physicality. I myself have rather large issues with it due to my pride, I loathe admiting that I should need something so basic as human affection. And yet... well, I'd sell my left arm on the Black Market if it meant someone would just hold me for a bit, so that's got to mean something...

I, also, am incredibly shy. I'm so awkward at approaching people when I'm out of my element, it's so pathetic. I just sort of glance up, and then look away for fear of the object of my current affections (or crush-lust, whatever, lol) noticing that so lowly a creature as I should dare gaze upon their inate perfection.

Wow. I just wrote all of that into a comment. Sad. But the commiseration and the empathy was what I was trying to get at. I feel your teenage, angsty pain, my internet twin! XD Now I'm going to go watch the Strokes "12:51" video because fucking gorgeous Julian Casablancas ala Tron just cracks me the fuck up. Hoorah.

Re: *sympathizes*

[fallingracefuly]

That whole comment = how I feel in a nutshell. I've never had a b/f before and it's basically killing me. Like...I feel like I'm even more invisible everyday I go without a boyfriend. u_u Tis sad.

Re: *sympathizes*

[deniedmsi]

I've had a few boyfriends, but it's been far too long since I've really had anything valid. Or invalid, for that matter. Just anything. I don't really feel invisible, as I'm quite secure with who I am as a person, but I do feel rather lonely. It's as if the room's suddenly and inexplicably grown a bit colder.

The fact that I'm also completely unsatisfied with my Uni. is a bit of an add on to all that frustruation. Or vice-versa. I don't know. All I'm certain of is that it'd be fucking awesome to have something to take my mind off of all those trivialities. Even if it just for... stuff. O_o;;;

Re: *sympathizes*

[fallingracefuly]

Argh. I hate being single.

*hugs*

[liquorfor_blood]

I agree with Laura. The more you stress about it the harder it's going to get. Just live your life and enjoy college and soon enough some wonderful amazing boy is going to pop up (and no I don't mean that in the boner way) and you'll wonder why you spent so much time being sad. Just wait it out.

[fallingracefuly]

Lol. Boner way. :D

Thanks man.