why's it all got to be so complicated, in this complicated world...
so i got to sleep into today until almost 2pm. how awesome is that? the first time in forevers. i realize that is really late, but i did go to bed like after 3 or something.. NO SCHOOL, how awesome is that? and for some odd reason, i don't have to work today either.. so, a day of nothing. for once i think that'll be okay.
let's take you back to monday though... so, come to find out josh and his wife are legally seperated now, and she moved out and wants the divorce before she leaves in febuary. --- so we closed monday, hung out the whole time, just had a blast being stupi and throwing the lil kids fiction cucumber animal at each other haha, dont ask, but when we got off, we stayed outside in the parking lot as per usual so we could talk as we always do, not any different than any other time. except later since we closed later. ... well
i get to work yesterday and josh is like "so we had a spy" apparently beth (this girl who at the start was supposed to be my friend & not like every girl) she told kim ( the one that called me a bitch my 1st day ) and she told eveyone that me and josh were in the parking lot in his truck on monday night at 2 am. which is true, but besides the point. so, josh said as soon as he got to work tuesday ( i didnt work ) that everyone, including mangers, were like "what is going on with you and hollie" ect. but, josh got his manager lady friend who closed that night to just say he left right after she did, so that it is a "rumor" and makes beth & kim look dumb.
well, it wasnt untrue but i guess it looks better for it to be untrue, even though it shouldnt look like nething, because him and his wife arent and havent really been together for a while. regardless we were talking, yes late and in the parking lot, but so what.. it isnt like we went back to his place, ya know.
heh, beth ended up coming in last night just to see someone and as soon as she got there i called her out. i was like "yeah, you told someone (kim) that had an even bigger mouth than you, cause she told everyone you said it" and she had this "oh shit" look on her face, it was priceless. i was like "guess when u were deciding which one of us to be friends with .. you picked the wrong one" .. all her explaination was is that she is worried about me *that she got invovled with this married man at her last work (which isnt what im doing)* and that she doesnt want me to go down that road, b/c she knows he is gonna hurt me.. ect. well, EVEN if she has good intention and felt that way... she needed to TELL ME, not the entire booksamillion staff. you know? it wasnt her place, or business and for that, i hate girls even more. she came back in later and like gave me a hug, and i am incapable of being mean. i didnt say nething, she just said she'd call me. whatever. i really dont want to hear it. lol josh said that our manager carolyn wouldnt let him work by himself tues so he wouldnt go up to beth heh.
i said i was gonna beat her with this starwars lightsaber we have in there. more so i wanna beat kim though. but still.
there are two girls there that i really do like and can talk to, maybe cause they're not immature. they're both married. the one girl, jenna, she is 25 and has a kid, and all.. she's really awesome. i hope i am just like her. she is the only other person josh can talk to there too. and i knew that. jenna was just telling me not to worry about what everoyne is saying, because i am the only one that matters in the end, that there opinion, while it may bother me, shouldnt run my life. which is true. her and kristina told me not to get involved w/josh though. and later i asked jenna if it was because of the situation or b/c he was a bad guy, and she said mainly the situation, but that they're seperated and the divorce should happen soon that maybe after time it won't be so bad, but to do what i want. that i am young and allowed to make mistakes and if i get hurt, i'll learn from it, but not to hold back because i am scared. she said she talked to him a lil, and said she said something about "what if your wife trys to come after hollie for being close to you" and he said he wouldnt ever let that happen, and that she could tell by talking to him and hearing how he talked about me that he really cares about me. which, i know he does b/c he told me. and i care about him too.
i'm being careful with it though, just talking to him, being there.. and not going to worry about these stupid f'in people who want to talk. jenna really helped just by listening and talking. so that was so cool of her. ... i just dont know much of anything, except that i am happy right now and i like that.
i go to talk to kyle yesterday for a lil bit. which i am thankful for.. i miss him. everytime i watch friends, i miss him.
made a few new friends lately, heh ... all boys but thats okay. me and tim (met at school) talk every so often. yesterday at work i felt bad, cause the new guy, jesse, whois really cool and i like that he's there cause finally a break from girls... he was like (as he was leaving) "well i was gonna give you my number (then he hands me a post it with it on it) but, i now realize you have a thing for older guys in parking lots (mainly a joke cause he knew i was flustered about the rumor)" and i was like "jesse, its not like that" i called him anyway on my break, to tell him that i'm not with josh or nething like that, but if he wanted to be friends that i did. he's cool. tom (he used to work there. good friends w/josh, he lives there most of the time, but we're tryin to hook him and the new girl tori up) he had me call him last night cause he was really sad, but he's a sweetheart and worries about me.
i think me and alan are going to the movies tonight. i gotta call him.
my phone just rang it was "restricted" and the only person that it did that with was randy. but he hung up as i answered. weird.
christmas is in like 9 days.. thats insane.
texas in 12...
birthyday in 13...
randy in 14.....
;)
let's take you back to monday though... so, come to find out josh and his wife are legally seperated now, and she moved out and wants the divorce before she leaves in febuary. --- so we closed monday, hung out the whole time, just had a blast being stupi and throwing the lil kids fiction cucumber animal at each other haha, dont ask, but when we got off, we stayed outside in the parking lot as per usual so we could talk as we always do, not any different than any other time. except later since we closed later. ... well
i get to work yesterday and josh is like "so we had a spy" apparently beth (this girl who at the start was supposed to be my friend & not like every girl) she told kim ( the one that called me a bitch my 1st day ) and she told eveyone that me and josh were in the parking lot in his truck on monday night at 2 am. which is true, but besides the point. so, josh said as soon as he got to work tuesday ( i didnt work ) that everyone, including mangers, were like "what is going on with you and hollie" ect. but, josh got his manager lady friend who closed that night to just say he left right after she did, so that it is a "rumor" and makes beth & kim look dumb.
well, it wasnt untrue but i guess it looks better for it to be untrue, even though it shouldnt look like nething, because him and his wife arent and havent really been together for a while. regardless we were talking, yes late and in the parking lot, but so what.. it isnt like we went back to his place, ya know.
heh, beth ended up coming in last night just to see someone and as soon as she got there i called her out. i was like "yeah, you told someone (kim) that had an even bigger mouth than you, cause she told everyone you said it" and she had this "oh shit" look on her face, it was priceless. i was like "guess when u were deciding which one of us to be friends with .. you picked the wrong one" .. all her explaination was is that she is worried about me *that she got invovled with this married man at her last work (which isnt what im doing)* and that she doesnt want me to go down that road, b/c she knows he is gonna hurt me.. ect. well, EVEN if she has good intention and felt that way... she needed to TELL ME, not the entire booksamillion staff. you know? it wasnt her place, or business and for that, i hate girls even more. she came back in later and like gave me a hug, and i am incapable of being mean. i didnt say nething, she just said she'd call me. whatever. i really dont want to hear it. lol josh said that our manager carolyn wouldnt let him work by himself tues so he wouldnt go up to beth heh.
i said i was gonna beat her with this starwars lightsaber we have in there. more so i wanna beat kim though. but still.
there are two girls there that i really do like and can talk to, maybe cause they're not immature. they're both married. the one girl, jenna, she is 25 and has a kid, and all.. she's really awesome. i hope i am just like her. she is the only other person josh can talk to there too. and i knew that. jenna was just telling me not to worry about what everoyne is saying, because i am the only one that matters in the end, that there opinion, while it may bother me, shouldnt run my life. which is true. her and kristina told me not to get involved w/josh though. and later i asked jenna if it was because of the situation or b/c he was a bad guy, and she said mainly the situation, but that they're seperated and the divorce should happen soon that maybe after time it won't be so bad, but to do what i want. that i am young and allowed to make mistakes and if i get hurt, i'll learn from it, but not to hold back because i am scared. she said she talked to him a lil, and said she said something about "what if your wife trys to come after hollie for being close to you" and he said he wouldnt ever let that happen, and that she could tell by talking to him and hearing how he talked about me that he really cares about me. which, i know he does b/c he told me. and i care about him too.
i'm being careful with it though, just talking to him, being there.. and not going to worry about these stupid f'in people who want to talk. jenna really helped just by listening and talking. so that was so cool of her. ... i just dont know much of anything, except that i am happy right now and i like that.
i go to talk to kyle yesterday for a lil bit. which i am thankful for.. i miss him. everytime i watch friends, i miss him.
made a few new friends lately, heh ... all boys but thats okay. me and tim (met at school) talk every so often. yesterday at work i felt bad, cause the new guy, jesse, whois really cool and i like that he's there cause finally a break from girls... he was like (as he was leaving) "well i was gonna give you my number (then he hands me a post it with it on it) but, i now realize you have a thing for older guys in parking lots (mainly a joke cause he knew i was flustered about the rumor)" and i was like "jesse, its not like that" i called him anyway on my break, to tell him that i'm not with josh or nething like that, but if he wanted to be friends that i did. he's cool. tom (he used to work there. good friends w/josh, he lives there most of the time, but we're tryin to hook him and the new girl tori up) he had me call him last night cause he was really sad, but he's a sweetheart and worries about me.
i think me and alan are going to the movies tonight. i gotta call him.
my phone just rang it was "restricted" and the only person that it did that with was randy. but he hung up as i answered. weird.
christmas is in like 9 days.. thats insane.
texas in 12...
birthyday in 13...
randy in 14.....
;)