so i'm 11 weeks pregnant and tomorrow i'm getting a termination. the baby --this time around pretty much looks like a baby-- has anencephaly, a major congenital birth defect. the brain is not and will never be fully formed. no forehead, no skull. it's a neural tube defect, much like spina bifida, only fatal. there's a good chance i could carry to ( Read more... )

how fucking hard.

please make the light come back.

i guess the news is bad once more.

i don't really know what to say.

i haven't updated in a long time, i know. life has been really hectic, and at the same time, i fell very much settled ( Read more... )

i'm going to be a teacher!!

i just cannot believe the major lifestyle changes it all entails!

i can't believe i made it to #22!

i'm leaving now for nice to meet up with our teachers, chose which school we want to attend and sign our contracts.

i'm completely overwhelmed.

22!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M 22!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a couple more hours.

the wait is intense.

i don't think i've ever wanted something (healthy) as much as i've wanted to be among the first 323 tomorrow. i don't want to pity myself but i also wish this terrible year would yield some good too ( Read more... )

just a quick word because i'm exhausted -- the results are in on thursday.

i came back home late last night from the professional interview. i don't know if it went well at all. i was supposed to discuss the topic (nonsense and teaching) on my own for 20 minutes, i only did for 12. then they interviewed me for 25 more minutes. i guess we'll see in less than a week. that was the major interview though because the grade ( Read more... )