Crawling

crawling in my skin
these wounds they will not heal
fear is how i fall
confusing what is real

there's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming/confusing
this lack of self-control i fear is never ending ( Read more... )

I feel like the stupidest person...This has hurt me more than Austin..and that was a huge pain then...I let Aren break down my cautious walls..I let myself believe what he said..But now I see how little he actually did care for me..How little he said that was actually true...I was too upset last night to write..An I still am...Tears blur my vision ( Read more... )

In My Eyes

You're graceful, your grace falls,
down around me in my eyes.
You're lovely, your love leaves,
So easily in my eyes.

Another day left waiting,
alone in my room with no calls from you.
So I call you up, but you let me down,
falling down around everyone except yourself.

I thought that this would never end ( Read more... )

Welllllity....hmm...that word reminds me of the period of time when me and Aren would just flirt around and he told me never to say it again...Hahaha...Yup..today was a planning day, woopdy fuckin doo. Ahh..Lauren came over before school started and got a ride with muah..Hmm..saw my sweetie before school started (::dances::)..I hadn't seen him in 2 ( Read more... )

Alrightttt..Yeah..Today was yet another day of gay testing...I walked over to the main part of school from the village during the 14 min break and saw a few people..Anyway, I didn't see Aren again, NOT cool sauce...My sister was there when I got out @ 1235...Yea..Her & Her BF are having a rough moment, and I believe are taking a break..After over a ( Read more... )

Waste

You mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know

It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I had no answers 'cause
I didn't even know you<

But these words
They can't repace
The life you...
...the life you wasteHow could you paint this picture ( Read more... )

Ah god...today was sooooo shitty and gay and not fun at all! Stupid testing all dam day..I didn't get to see Aren alll day and he didn't text me at all...He hasn't been online all day, and he hasn't called me either...Airica is feelin neglected. I have called him a few times, but his phone is a sack of shit and is always off...He puked today but ( Read more... )

Ahhh well...Today was a pretty good day all in all...I got to see Aren lots today, and that always makes Airica smile big :D Hmm..Before 1st, before 2nd, before 4th, during lunch, after 5th, during 6th, after 6th..SMILE SMILE! Ahh..today was nice, nice! Aren gave me $20 also, which also makes Airica smile big..Ha, Aren is like the only thing I ( Read more... )

Ahh..one night it's my leg, the next my right something...Anyway..today was soo boring! Holy shitttt...I just layed out and sat around changing my journal and showered...It took forever to make my journal the way I want it...And I put sexy Fox McCloud from StarFox64 for my background..Man..Fox is a fox...LOLLL...Godddd...I was just talking to my ( Read more... )

My leg really hurts..It won't stop..It's really not good times..Let's see..Today was alright...I layed out for a good amount of time..Got tanner.YAY...Um...showered and got ready or whatever and chilled around for a while...Then Jeff came to get me at like 7 or something...We went to his house and played Star Fox..I started out playing then he ( Read more... )