sorry Ryan    I know you are a great friend to me

Ill be ok really

AIM ia fucked up for me cant really talk on it ever.

Im sorry all you shouldnt worry about me Ill live

I rag on my parents more thn I should,  htey are great parents jsut they dont know the half of the shit with me but what else is new.   

Im frustrated Im tired Im misserable.    Tired of looking for jobs and getting turned down on every application.    One of the major reasons, is because my boss, and rather close friend ( as he puts it)    wont talk to me anymore.        I am willing to bet that confidentiality was broken and he found out from one of his friends (and one of my ( Read more... )

Now I lay me down to sleep
because my soul has grown too weak
If I die before I wake
then youll know I was a fake

Yeah ( Read more... )

Dieing in your eyes
your devine lover full of lies.
cold is my heart
fading away as I fall apart

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know 

Why do I bother to live?

Missing ( Read more... )

Id sell my soul to say Im fine ( Read more... )

        My life has all but fadded
these scars are way to jaded
lost in my mind in immortal dismay
my life is a hell that is here to stay
It is time to pull my plug
lift up the pistol and emmit a slug
burry it deep in my brain
and end my painfull disdain
swallow the pill that makes me ill
hoping this time it will lay me still