Sunday was an odd night. It was a very emotional, pissy, fun ADPi meeting. Nicole Brown and Black came, we read friendship quotes, got mad at one another, and plain ol' cried over Senior Speeches ( Read more... )

Tuesday morning started off where I was applying mascara and hit a mailbox. It took out my side mirror and door handle. The insurance company and my parents think I swerved to miss a deer, so it's all being taken cared of. It gets better. I get a smokey-smell Ford Taurus to drive. Even better... last night, which I'll get to in a moment ( Read more... )

"When you said forever, you meant a year.
     When I said forever, I meant every day until I died.
 When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore.
      When I said always, I meant until time ended.
  When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl.
       When I said I loved you, I meant I had ( Read more... )

"I do... but I don't...
And I want to... but I won't...
I am... but I'm not...
And I could... but I just can't...
It feels right... but it's wrong...

And I've hurt for way too long.

So when you ask me if I know what I want... I do... but I don't."

That's how I feel. I think I'm just going to let myself go and see what happens. He's so damn cute.

We ( Read more... )

So I don't trust him. I think it's because my brother flipped out when I mentioned a double date with Steve. Or the fact that my parents would die. And maybe it's his reputation.

But I want to believe him. I want to believe that he actually likes me. I want to believe his words.

"Steve K" (4:46:25 PM): i dont like making investments that I cant see ( Read more... )

So tonights online conversation went on like so after I told him I'm unsure of his intentions:

"Steve K" (11:39:13 PM): I think that.... You just have to learn to trust me. I have gotten around, I'm not gonna lie. But I also consider myself to be a good guy. And out of all things, the one thing I can say is that I have never manipulated a females ( Read more... )

Let's be honest, I didn't do anything on St. Patrick's Day. I just can't make plans unless I know I'm doing something FOR SURE ( Read more... )

Why am I so afraid... ?

Love always,
Fallon

Steve made this up on the spot for me online tonight... some of this maaayyyy be explicit, I apologize, but it's so damn cute!

It's in your eyes I lose myself ( Read more... )

I'm just going to bed. It's 4:54am and a couple of minutes ago I just got off the phone with Steve. He called at 12:22am. He's... not what I expected... in a very good way.

Love always,
Fallon