Every night I sit here around 12am-3am and I listen to the same 6 songs over and over again.

1. Uninvited- Alanis Morissette
2. The promise - Tracy Chapman
3. What hurts the most - rascal flatts
4. Goodbye my lover - James Blunt
5. Fast car - Tracy Chapman
6.Never really gone - matt wrote me this

I play them over and over and over again basically until ( Read more... )

* Matt's dating a girl who just turned 15, he's 18. and it's gross.
* Never talking to him ever again..[ or at least for a long, long time ].
* CMU stuff came in..I'm rooming in Sweeney.
* Keeping in touch with my new CMU friends.
* Been hanging out with Nicole and Renee a lot.
* Few grad parties here and there.
* Carrie's quitting sullivans, and that's ( Read more... )

So what have i got to prove?
and what have i got to lose?
when youre not worth fighting for.

and why am i feeling down?
while youre out messing around
and youre not worth begging for.

i just wanted to stop by
i just wanted to see you one last time
i just wanted to say bye
i just wanted to get you off my mind.

tonight was horrible. Really, really bad ( Read more... )

So basically a ton of wonderful things have happened to me in the past few weeks. I haven't really had the motivation or energy to update, but I guess I will.
Canada

Canada was wonderful. It gave me a lot of closure on what was going on between matt and I, but it also opened up new doors. I think it was one of the most memorable events I've had in my ( Read more... )

ohhh emmm geeee.
matt just called me and we are meeting up tonight.
this is gonna be SOOOO weird.
but ive been waiting so long to see him!
im so fucking excited.
he sounded really excited.
i cant even control my self.
SUMMER 06` starts today bittttttch.

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Today was my last day of high school.
..who cares? cause i don't.
im happy it's over :D
some people were crying today ; and i was rejoicing.
it's glorious.
in about 3 hours.
dawn is picking me up
and we are leaving to canada.
ill be back wednesday.
i can't wait to leave the states.
see you all soon.
<3


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mmhmm..dawn and i booked our hotel today.
we are staying at the "budget inn". HAHA. 
it will cost us like $53 a person for 2 nights =-0 but it's worth it.
ahh im so excited!!
i wish matt would be this excited.
but nope, hes gotta be a canadian prick doesn't he?
yes he does.
anyways, it's gonna be a blast i can't wait.
we can miss that stupid senior meeting ( Read more... )

canada plans are coming along super nicely =]
just gotta get the good ol BC from dad when he returns.
ohh, and some $$.
but yeah..we are getting a hotel..not bad either.
matt's all mad cause we aren't staying in his cousins hotel
but hes taking too fucking long for us to figure this shit out.
its in 4 days.
i dont even know if i want to see him when i get ( Read more... )

today was a good day.
especially at night time.
i like how april and courtnie broke into my house.
and then we went to the playscape.
and that was fun.
it reminded me of summer.
except without adam,jim, and jared.
i miss that.
♥