I honestly didn't know. I decided to go against what my parents wanted me to do because I felt like my whole life I had been doing the things they (and my grandparents) wanted me to do and never found myself or what I wanted to do. If I hadn't gone off the deep end and rebelled the way I did I'd probably be finishing up in school in a major that they chose for me (possibly nursing, but my dad didn't suggest that for me until recently so more than likely some buisness managment), living at home and possibly working somewhere for extra spending money. I would probably only have the same friends since HS but still felt excluded like I did then. I wouldn't have had the chance to become independant and lose my shyness. I wouldn't have had my daughter and discovered my love for kids.
I acutally couldn't be happier that my life is completely different.
i have no clue. i used to be both in a huge hurry to grow up but also really scared of it at the same time, if that makes any sense. i had no idea what i wanted to do and therefore no idea as to where i'd be at. i sometimes imagined that i'd have gone away to college and reveived a bachelors in the usual amount of time. i guess i thought i'd be out of my parent's house by now. once i met my bd (at 17) i thought at this age we'd be happily married with two kids a house and both of us have good jobs or careers, only the two kid part came true, and i'm so relieved i didn't marry him. i was also going down a pretty bad path at one point and getting pregnant helped to give me a new perspective on life as corny as that sounds. in short i used to be severely depressed and suicidal and having a baby gave me something to live for.
I turn 23 in May. I figured by now I'd be finishing up my first year of med school. #1 I'm not in med school and #2 I'm thinking I'll go to grad school first. Having a kid definitely changed it, and though I don't regret the choices I've made, I would probably encourage other people to seriously consider what they are doing (if they get pregnant...) and whether it would kill them to wait a couple of years to have a child.
Honestly? I always thought that by this age, I'd be dead. Either drugs, suicide, or my good ole craziness finally catching up with me, but I never imagined myself living this long.
Having my kid changed it obviously, because I have worked hard in the last few years to become healthier and healthier minded. I'm not perfect, but I'm happy, which is the first time I could have honestly said that since childhood.
As for material possessions, jobs, etc? I really don't care. I do what I do. I'm going to school in Fall, not because I really really want to, but because I have to to keep my job. Where I am in that regard is not as important to me, and never has been, as where I am mentally and emotionally. My goal has never been to be a super rich lawyer with a million dollar house and a huge education. My goal was never about family, location, whatever. My goal since I was young, was to be happy, and I am, so that's all that matters.
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I acutally couldn't be happier that my life is completely different.
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i was also going down a pretty bad path at one point and getting pregnant helped to give me a new perspective on life as corny as that sounds. in short i used to be severely depressed and suicidal and having a baby gave me something to live for.
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Having my kid changed it obviously, because I have worked hard in the last few years to become healthier and healthier minded. I'm not perfect, but I'm happy, which is the first time I could have honestly said that since childhood.
As for material possessions, jobs, etc? I really don't care. I do what I do. I'm going to school in Fall, not because I really really want to, but because I have to to keep my job. Where I am in that regard is not as important to me, and never has been, as where I am mentally and emotionally. My goal has never been to be a super rich lawyer with a million dollar house and a huge education. My goal was never about family, location, whatever. My goal since I was young, was to be happy, and I am, so that's all that matters.
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