i used to make an effort with this. the only trouble is, when i'm content, there's not much to say. it's when i'm struggling that i feel the need to let it out ( Read more... )

has been something entriely different ( Read more... )

feeling that feeling again.

but it's not quite the same.

re-reading this thing brings back memories. good memories. but i realise now that im happier than i ever could have been.

things you think you know, you look back on and realise you were such a tit.
i'm living for the here and now.

he loves me.

i broke up with starkey today.

i dont want to be sad becuase i think ive done the right thing.

i think he's fantastic and he'll always be special to me and we're gona be friends. it might take time but i dont want to lose touch.

18months is a long time.

"that mind altering substances would be really good about now"

i need to sort my life out.

there's so much shit going on. i dont even want to say wat, once i type it it becomes too real.

fuck.

im so confused.

and scared.

and worried.

it's not good.

it did.

newcastle friday :D

utter shite ( Read more... )

absolute fucking shite is how i feel.

im tired. and im sick of it. i need sleep. i need rest. i need to get OVER this insomnia. eurgh,

today has been horrid.

rip redhead.