Today and yesterday were so warm. I've been feeling a lot better about life. I love feeling this happy and loved.

oneonta in 9 days!!!

I need sunshine and warm weather in my life. I need to see that there is light at the end of this tunnel im in.

its amazing how you can be surronded by so many people..
...and still feel so alone.

i dont understand death. It makes no sense to me. How one minute a person can be living, dreaming, and breathing. The next minute all of that stops and they are gone for good. You never see their smile anymore, hear their voice, or get that feeling you get when they are with you. Death is unfair and strikes when you least expect it. I have had ( Read more... )

i apologize to anyone who saw my last journal entry,  i thought i made it private. If you did see it that was me venting my frustration and i apologize for the vulgarity. Moving on...

Life has been a real roller coaster ride for the last 2 months and just when i think things are starting to settle down the get all crazy again. I wish i could just ( Read more... )

i want to apologize for my last entry. I was just really frustrated when i wrote it and i said a lot of things that i didnt mean and i hurt some people that i never ever would want to hurt. Especially kristin baker. She has been a very good friend to me over the last couple of years and just like any other friends we get in our rough points. Just ( Read more... )

Im so excited tomorrow me and mike are booking our trip to disney! From august 18th-23rd me and mike are gonna be relaxing with the disney gang! Its so exciting!!! Hes never been so hes super pumped just bc i've beefed it up to be the best place in the world cause it is! We are staying at the port orleans resort which means we can get the extra ( Read more... )

Mike varga came into my life almost 4 years ago. Ever since he has been in my life he has made a total impact on my life. Right now and the next few hours i will sit and wait till he reads the letter, wait and see if he will let me be a part of his life still. Its so true what they say that you dont know what you got till its gone, and hes not even ( Read more... )

things i am going to do now that school is out and i have goals:
-sign up for weight watchers on friday
-sign up for a gym with kristin baker
-paint my new room and get fun stuff for it
-save money to go to disney
-and most importantly...enjoy my summer

He came and knocked on the door, he was really anxious because he wanted this night to be special. He wanted to show her how much he loved her, even though he has told her thousands of times, this time he wanted to show her. He heard foot steps coming towards the door, he found himself feeling nervous, his stomach began to turn and he felt amost ( Read more... )