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Title: Behind His Hazel Eyes
Author: LilFanFicAR (aka Kendra )
Category: /From First to Last
Summary: *based on the song by Kelly Clarkson* He was all Sonnylived for. One Shot
Disclaimer: I don't own anyone in From First To Last
Status: Complete
Rating: R
I am sitting in my apartment all alone. I had just lost my boyfriend for some girl. I won't stand for this, I am seventeen years and the lead singer of a slowly growing band.
I don't need relationship problems to, plus he was the only thing I was living for. I wiped the tears from my eyes and walked to the kitchen. I picked up my favorite knife and
rolled up my sleeves noticing the old scars were still visible. I was no newbie to cutting so this should easy right? The hard part was writing the note, but I managed to write
one.I slashed the blade across old scars reopening them again. I slowly cut something into my stomach. I heard the door open just as I fell to kitchen floor.
Matt's POV
I had just broken up with my boyfriend Sonny yesterday. I felt kind of guilty so I decided to go check on him. What I found made me stand in shock. The first thing I saw was Sonny laying on the floor in a pool of his own blood.(bad pun I know but I am not trying to be funny.)
The next thing I noticed was something written on his stomach. It was the letter "I" a heart and then the letters "MG". Put it together and oh my God. I love Matt Good, which of course is me.
The final thing I noticed was the computer paper on the counter.
Matt, I love you and I always will. But I can't live without you. I'm bad at writing suicide notes so maybe Kelly can help explain how I feel better.
seems like just yesterday you were a part of me I used to stand so tall I used to be so strong your arms around me tight everything felt so right unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong no I can't breathe, I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on Here I am once again i'm torn into pieces can't deny it, can't pretend just thought you were the one broken up, deep inside but you wont get to see the tears I cry behind these hazel eyes I told you everything opened up and let you in you made me feel alright for once in my life now all that's left of me is what I pretend to be sewed together but so broken up inside no I can't breathe, no I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on Here I am once again i'm torn into pieces can't deny it, can't pretend just thought you were the one broken up, deep inside but you wont get to see the tears I cry behind these hazel eyes swallow me then spit me out for hated you I blame myself seeing you, it kills me now though I dont cry on the outside anymore anymore Here I am once again i'm torn into pieces can't deny it, can't pretend just thought you were the one broken up, deep inside but you wont get to see the tears I cry behind these hazel eyes Here I am once again i'm torn into pieces can't deny it, can't pretend just thought you were the one broken up, deep inside but you wont get to see the tears I cry behind these hazel eyes.
Good luck and I'm sure you'll make a better lead singer than myself anyways. I'll watch you guys sore to the top from heaven.
Peace and Love
Sonny Jonathan Moore
Oh my fucking God. This is not happening, I felt his bloody wrist in an attempt to see if he has a pulse. He did although it was quite faint. I called for an ambulance then I called Travis and Derek to inform them of what Sonny has done. The ambulance arrived first. Derek and Travis walked in just as the paramedic prounced him dead.The three of us embraced eachother in a group hug the tears streaming from our eyes.
A Few Days Later at the Funeral still Matt's point of view
The funeral for our trusted friend, beloved bandmate and for me cherised love has just ended. Travis' head was buried into Audrey's chest while tears streamed from their eyes. We had gotten a hold of Jon and he was found sitting down being comforted by his wife Krystal. Derek was under a tree going through pack after pack of cigarettes. As for me I stood looking up at the sky as rain fell from it and thought to myself. "You were wrong Sonny, I am getting to see you cry right now." I brushed the tears away from my own eyes and went to sit down next to Derek.
The End
© Kendra 2005