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I don't know what you want from me.
You haven't apologized for your behavior. I'm still really upset by it. You spent two weeks not talking to me because you'd rather avoid the issue than acknowledge I was pissed at you. That I am still pretty pissed at you.
The second you get a Casual Friendly Reminder that people are done with your passive aggressive bullshit-- from somebody else-- you message me to say hi.
Do I-- reward you by acting friendly and peppy to acknowledge you are trying to work on an issue?
Or do I get to be pissed off, and I am, and chance having you backslide because there is no positive reinforcement?
I'm tired of this. I am tired of how condescending you act towards me, especially in groups, especially when around the people you consider are dominant personalities, I am SUPER sick and tired that it even gets written into your role play characters towards mine, I'm REALLY sick when you act like the ruling authority over other people's feelings. I don't like being type-casted and I DON'T like being trapped in this corner you have me in, where I honestly feel like I can't have ANY of these feelings towards your behavior and not have it explode in my face
And I REALLY don't like the fact that you've gotten me to a place where I'm beginning to not CARE how you react when I get so pissed off, I explode, and resentment geysers out. Because we are getting there.
And I hate that. I -hate- that you're trapping me in a place where I AM feeling so angry and upset, and I don't LIKE the geyser explosions, I don't like feeling or acting that way. But I don't feel like I can safely express ANYthing because of the way you'll react.
So thank you.
In other news, I love that my kitten's tail immediately goes up when I talk. "Mom is talking yay!!!"
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