erm. everything sucks. my grandma got moved back into the hospital again...except this time they're keeping her for at least a week...in the psychiatric ward. i can't handle thisssssss. akjshdajksd. flute lesson last week didn't work...maybe i can get one in on thursday...i doubt it. WE was good tonight except..the invitational is next thursday and ( Read more... )

ok. you know there's something wrong with meg natoli when she hasn't really played flute in almost a month...i can't even go one day without it! AND WHAT GOOD TIMING! 3 WEEKS BEFORE STATES AUDITIONS. way too goooo loserrrr. i must say i feel like butt. everything is just aklsjdklasd BLAH. winter break...not much of a break at all. worked 6 shifts ( Read more... )

Oh Danny boy, the pipes, the pipes are calling ( Read more... )

it's christmas eve but it's too sunny out to feel like it. we have reservations for Casanova's at 6...and we're going to the 11:00 mass at church. and I'M NOT PLAYING THE SERVICE. and i wanted to but i think it's gonna be all choral and organ stufffffffff ( Read more... )

i don't think it's possibly for these two weeks to get any...weirder. by that i mean worse. except i'm happy about region band...but i'm not going to lie i'm disappointed with the music...at least it sounds amazing. and i can't believe i qualify for states...it finally just hit me lastnight when gattsek talked about me at the concert...and said how ( Read more... )

fuck freehold regional. for fucking my monday up. big time. i'm scared for regions. i can't wait.

I CAN'T BREATHE. I WAS SO FUCKING UPSET. I THOUGHT I BLEW THIS. GATTSEK JUST CALLED ME A LITTLE WHILE AGO. HE WAS LIKE "WERE YOU EXPECTING A CALL?" AND I SAID NO AND HE ASKED WHY NOT AND I TOLD HIM I DDIN'T DO SO GREAT. AND HE WAS LIKE "OH REALLLLLLLYYYY" AND I WAS SAID YEAH. AND HE GOES "WELL THEN I'LL TELL YOU THIS. YOU'RE THE TOP 6TH FLUTE IN ( Read more... )

i blew it. i fucking blew it. i've never felt so terrible. why can't i do anything right? why do i always fuck up the things that matter the most? and i cried. the whole time i was at work. i cried in public. i hate myself. i blew it.

REGION BAND AUDITIONS TOMORROW. I'M READY. AND I'M GOING TO KICK SOME ASIAN ASS.

AND RON'S GOING TO KICK SOME KAREN ASS.

i hope. lmao.

this time next weekend i'll either bee extremely happy or extremely upset. i think i'm going to be upset ( Read more... )