why does my family inform me of the death of a grandparent via email or voicemail.

when my mother calls me twice in one day is when another family member dies :-(

ugh.

This time she left 2 voicemails.

"Self sabotage is something we do to ourselves when we feel we don't deserve good things to happen to or for us. There is no logical explanation for why we don't or won't allow such things to happen. This is not for lack of desire for good things, rather, it's like a tug of war we play with ourselves inside between us wanting something good and not ( Read more... )

this sinking feeling in my stomach. i'll explain more later.

I'll be moving so soon. 4 months. whoa.

living in this apartment.
and theres nothing i can do abour it.
but say it on this page.
for no one to hear.

except emily.
whom by the way i miss.
call me sometime

so this visit to lakeland has been less then amazing.

It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to go back.

"Your Chi is on backorder, i'm just letting you know it will be here right before your birthday ( Read more... )

my life is truly falling apart.
wow.

this is what it's like to start to lose everything.

this is what that's like.

blah

i get the tingle
i wanna mingle
thats what i want.

im listening to radar by britney

those lyrics don't represent me, my feelings, or my mood in any shapw way or form