of loving enough and loving more
Title : of loving enough and loving more…
Author : fantasydesire @solace
Chapter: oneshot
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I only own them in my own fantasy-like mind - meaning they are not mine really..
Summary : Kibum broke up with Minho and he thought they were over. But were they really?
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“Don’t you love me?” Minho asked in all quietness. His gaze sad and big beautiful eyes filled with held back tears.
Kibum tore his eyes away from his lover - he himself did not want this to end, but the world was against their relationship.. and there was nothing they could do about it.
“You know that I love you very much…” Kibum finally said in a whisper, eyes still looking out the window; glued to where the lonely moon was floating.
“But you don’t love me enough to stay..”
Kibum heard the sad words and shook his head. He opened his mouth to counter Minho’s words but when he turned his head, Minho had already left.
Kibum felt his tears spilled then as he said to the wind, “No. I love you enough to let you go..”
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Kibum woke up with a start. It had been two months. Two months since their break up. And for two months, Kibum could not sleep well. He kept having the same dream - it was the same conversation from the same painful memory.. memory of their goodbye.
Kibum swung his legs over the bed and onto the cold floor, padding towards the bathroom. He washed his face vigorously as if he was trying to wash away any traces of the nightmare. He panted a bit and looked up into the mirror to stare at his reflection. He looked like a wreck. He sighed heavily and turned off the water tap. He wiped his face dry and headed to the dining hall.
He froze as soon as he walked into the kitchen. He could recognize that toned back and powerful arms anywhere even if they were clothed by a thousand layers of cloth. Okay, that’s an exaggeration.. but you get what he meant.
Minho.
As if he heard Kibum, he turned his head slightly and asked, “Can’t sleep?”
Kibum nodded silently and forced his feet to walk towards the cabinets to prepare his “sleeping potion”.
Hot chocolate laced with warm milk should do the trick, Kibum thought to himself as he reached up to take down his pink mug.
He frowned when he could not find it.
He heard a low chuckling that came from no one else but the other occupant of that space.
Kibum whipped his head around and his gaze fell on the mug in Minho’s hands. The latter simply raised the searched pink mug in a toast-like manner and sipped its content. Kibum’s eyes narrowed in annoyance and that only caused Minho to chuckle more.
Minho stepped forward. Kibum took a step back. Minho cocked his head to the right as if contemplating what he should do next and Kibum mentally kicked himself as he caught that knowing and mischievous look in Minho’s eyes. Kibum could feel imaginary butterflies fluttered in his stomach. Damn him to still have that effect on me.
Minho strode forward and Kibum could not stop himself from backing away into the cabinets. When there was no room left for him to retreat into, Kibum started to panic. Minho stopped right in front of his former lover and smirked. He simply stared at Kibum with that smug look on his face.
Minho took another sip from Kibum’s pink mug, eyes not leaving the other man. Minho swallowed the liquid and Kibum’s eyes automatically stared at the taller man’s throat.
Kibum gasped when Minho suddenly leaned in and caught his lips in a soft kiss. Kibum could feel Minho’s tongue coaxing him to open up to him and he did. As Minho pushed his tongue into Kibum’s mouth, his free arm pulled the latter flush against his muscular lean form.
Kibum could feel Minho’s tongue caressing his own and he could taste the drink the athletic rapper had previously on his tongue - chocolate and milk. Kibum moaned wantonly when Minho deepened their kiss. Minho smiled. He tore his lips away from Kibum’s soft ones and trailed opened mouth kisses across the feline eyed male’s jaw and neck. Kibum wrapped his arms around Minho’s neck and gasped when Minho’s teeth bit into his sensitive skin.
Minho pulled away then, causing Kibum to look up at him quizzically. Minho smiled kindly and hefted the slim rapper onto the kitchen counter. He placed the rim of the mug on Kibum’s lower lip and Kibum opened his mouth to sip the drink. Minho turned the mug and sipped on the exact place where Kibum’s lips had been. They continued the routine until the mug was empty.
Minho set the mug aside and placed both his arms on either side of Kibum. He leaned closer and they shared another slow and lazy kiss.
Minho trailed a finger over Kibum’s profile while whispering, “You loved me enough to let me go.. but I love you more to keep holding on..”
Kibum was shocked and it was evident in his eyes. Minho stayed quiet and stared at Kibum one last time before walking away.
Kibum watched as the one he loved walked away. He felt his heart fell and clenched painfully. But when Minho waved a hand without looking back, his sharp eyes caught the glint of something on one of Minho’s long fingers. Kibum smiled then. Minho still wore their couple ring.
Kibum took out the long chained necklace he wore underneath his shirt, never once did he take it off. He stared at the ring attached to the chain - it was the other half to the one on Minho’s finger. He slipped necklace over his head, detached the ring and wore it on his own fourth finger.
Kibum smirked and strode purposefully towards Minho’s bedroom. Minho didn’t use the word love in past tense, so that means he still loves him.. right? Kibum pushed open the door of Minho’s bedroom and silently thanked the Heavens for Jonghyun’s overnight at Se Kyung’s. He closed the door with a soft click and turned. His cat-like eyes met the huge orbs belonged to none other than Minho himself and he could feel his lips curled into a dangerous smile.
Two months of abstinence and mental torture.. he is soooo gonna pay..