I haven't written in so long, it's a shame. I think its because i've been avoiding my problems rather than dealing with them. blah i'm even avoiding it now. i can feel myself holding back because i know theres a lot of hurt under there i just dont want to feel. i dont know what my problem is really. i think a lot of stuff that happened to me over ( Read more... )

She's roaming now.
Flashes of home
and people there.
Pressured caught up she feels,
measured all up revealed.
I still haven't walked my distance.
I'm not ready to return.
Independent on my way to become I.

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour ( Read more... )

bah, i keep avoiding this entry. i really dont want to write about it but i know i have to in order to sort it all out. so the question of my life is why do i become extremely obsessed with certain girls and not guys? i have no idea. the only answer i can think of is that im gay. but vag disgusts me so that cant be it...can it? maybe i am just ( Read more... )

i've recently been having the craving to write (thats a mouth full) so i decided to tonight, my first night back from break. i learned a lot about myself in this past week. things i thought were dead in me were awoken and perceptions i had were broken. shh i know that rhymed. i dont know what i even want to say here. i just feel like theres a lot ( Read more... )

i pray that god release me from this lonelyness. send me someone worth while father. send me someone who is nice, funny, smart, cute, and interested in just me. help me heavenly father.

I find myself these days wanting to break out of my shell more than ever. I held myself back for so long in high school that I feel like im exploding with things I want to do now. I just have this huge urge to go out and experience life. Sometimes I do feel like I missed out on a lot, but at the same time I don't at all. Recently i've just been ( Read more... )

So i've been thinking about change a lot recently. I feel like i've gone through dramatic changes since being here and most of the time I don't really know how to deal with them. I realized since I started drinking everything has been so different. Weird? Maybe. In my mind, I picture my moral/self structure is that of a pyramid. Starts out with a ( Read more... )

im updating this so it doent get deleted

you seem hesitant when you ask me that....do you not want to anymore ( Read more... )