Maybe I was wrong...

[faranim]

Well, ever since my post a few days ago I've been second guessing myself about what it is that I really want. I think I'm going through a phase in my life that most "normal" people go through in high school. I guess that makes me a bit of a late bloomer, but I want to get this thing figured out. I'm going to be revealing a lot of information

Comments

[onionkiri]

You don't know me, but I added you on LJ quite a while back for your FFXI posts and never took you off -- so here's my take, for what it's worth. In college I found myself in a somewhat similar situation (I won't elaborate, since I don't feel terribly comfortable doing so on a public entry), especially with regards to physical intimacy/relationships in general. It was a completely different stage of my life in that respect since I hadn't dated at all before then, and wasn't really sure about how to go about it. And after having experienced that, I completely agree with every point Lui made in his comment -- the best way to find yourself in intimate situations is actually, to not seek them out, instead do what makes you happy, and things will take care of themselves. From your post, you're quite a bit more sociable and all around attractive than you used to be, so just put yourself out there and you won't have a problem with attracting people

[switchstix]

All the advice people are putting out right now are correct. The best way to know what you truly want is to get out there and find out if you like it. I would recommend trying either a social club or just get like 2 friends and the three of you should go to a bar. Just go for fun and if your shy like me, just being in that scene will teach you how to overcome shyness (or maybe thats just the alcohol) but thats how I met my guy now. Been seeing him for a while now and we both connect mentally and physically.

And if it's any help, I still think girls are pretty, I watch Americas Next Top Model just because of those girls. But I think they are just that, pretty to look at. The thought of them in bed with me or looking at their vag (eww) would completely gross me out beyond all hell.

[gwynplainesiren]

Didn't really expect this, just went to look through your icon package again. Now I feel compelled to type up a comment so brace for introspective blathering

[sofo88]

Hi! Not sure if you'll get to read this or not (for the fact that this is an older post). But I'm pretty well in your situation. I am gay (pretty open about it now) but I haven't really realised that it was permanent (I thought I was just curious or w/e), and that's why I told my parents and close friends. Anyway, onto the subject, I've never had had any need of close-contact with others, and that's nothing you should feel negative about it (it's also normal to feel ashamed or embarrassed of nudity/sex, specially if you've gone to a catholic school like me, where these things are looked like a sin