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yea heres the list, its gonna be gay and its gonna be really emo, but just deal with it for once
1. i actually like working at cvs
2. My strongest bonds are with my true friends, and they kno who they are, guys and girls, idk wut id do w/o their support
3. Most of my problems i look for girls to answer, usually their about relationships and stuff, even if i dont know them too well
4. i think alot of people think im gay/bi, and it makes me feel kinda shitty
5. im not gay/bi ^^^
6. sometimes i think i go too far with my friends and push hanging out with them way too much, for example ill hang out with one person every day for a while and then ill goto someone else, which kinda sucks, i want to spend time with people i havent with in a while, this goes for both sexes also
7. alot of people think im desperate, but its really just me trying to form a strong relationships with ppl
8. i like getting haircuts often
9. i used to hate hats, but now its a part of me
10. guitar is my life, idc who thinks i suck, who thinks i should quit or wutever, i love it i play constantly and in my spare time i dont do much else besides that, i constantly learn new songs and i really want to get in a band someday
11. im really scared about where my life is gonna go next year, and i dont talk about it at all, i dont kno what college (if i get into one) what job, or what major, it all puzzles me, and theyres so many choices
12. Love continues to surprise me everyday, it like i have a different view on how people fall into it and how people encounter it in different ways, and how relationships can be so great and so depressing and are so different no matter what person you look at
13. lately ive realized i have a strong relationships with some people, but theyre all so different, and its kinda cool they are
14. nearly every relationship ive tried to make has failed to work out they way i wanted to, but they all somehow made me happy in some way and formed a good friendship with
15. EVERY relationship ive tried not to work for seems to be wut i want just not the person i was hoping for
16. dan has been gone too long, and been back not long enough, i want him back, but not like sam does, and i feel for her
17. i really want the best for all my friends and it really sucks when stuff doesnt work out for them, and alot of shit doesnt
18. 18...my birthday is on the 18th, along with a bunch of others
19. in my eyes, im not good looking, but ive come to realize i really want that one person to think i am
20. i like emo music, i make emo music, its good music as much as ive had a grudge against it, u cant just hate a specific type of music because of what they talk about
21. unless its rap because rap isnt music, unless its dre, hes down
22. im a machine when it comes to work, i really worked way too much this summer, and i think its made a impact on my personality and the way i react to things, almost like im a zombie, at least i feel like it
23. dan is steve howe and im jimmy page, if u dont kno who these guys are look them up and learn or dan is that bongo guy from guster and im morello, we run shit
24. ive been wondering where winthrop has been...last ive heard of him he was in maine
25. i cant wait for school to start, but i kno after a week, im gonna be wishing for summer again, maybe i just want to go back a week, chill and then go back to doing nothing
26. I loved one, i thought i loved two, and i have one new love, theres a cliffhanger for u, u can prob figure it all out though...o well
27. my reputation used to be important to me, but ive realized i dont have to make sure i have a good one, if i be myself i could care less, as long at the group doesnt either
28. when im in the mood i listen to really really hardcore metal and sit for about a hour listening to it, its the reason why i always smile and never really flip out about anything, mostly shadows fall, and killswitch engaged, i highly reccomend u dont listen to them, unless u really want to get really pissed off, but it helps
29. i seriously wonder how many people will read this
30. NUMBER 30!!!
31. to old friends: we wont stop chillin and nothings gonna stop us, i think about us when i hear "we are the few" by streetlight manifesto or "true believers" by bouncing souls (but u guys already knew that) so many stories, so many awesome times, its been nuts, sad this is the last year of our insanity
32. to new friends (this year): its been a great year honestly, ive met alot more people when i thought there wasnt any more i could know, it couldve been us just chillin out in class or just fucking around at a party/small get together, songs- "i feel home" by oar and "beer" by reel big fish
33. 10% of the time im wondering wut house im gonna go to and wasted at, the other 90 is spent on chicks (or just one), and i think all guys will agree
34. i think my life is kinda pathetic
35. i dont think ill really ever accomplish alot, like cure cancer or have some huge impact on society in general, i only really care if i make a impact on someone and they can look back and maybe tell someone about how some crazy guy named mike green changed theyre life, and after this year i hope more people tell me that, so far nikki walters is the only one, and it slipped cause she thought i was going to college. it was really nice to know and i wont forget it
36. i look back at my freshman and sofmore years and i feel really bad about alot of the things i did and i realize how much i screwed up relationships with friends and teachers, i miss the track days and playing truth or dare on the way back from meets, even though i only went to about 3-4 every season
37. i have made 2 songs so far (noones heard them yet), working on two more, and im planning on more, if noone wants to make a band soon, by the time winter comes around im expecting a duet album to come out with anyone who will sing, and its not that hard to find one who will, so look forward to it
38. when im working in cvs it really is a huge deal when anyone i kno comes in, it really makes me really happy, and my day go by some my quicker and better, even if they didnt come to see me and just happened to walk in
39. small things make the biggest difference for me, that was gay, but true
40. thanks dan- for being there since 7th grade, bad boys for life lol we gotta just go into school like brodie and JT and just fuck shit up one day
41. thanks frank- for making sure i dont get my ass handed to me, and theres been some close calls lol, most of the time getting out of a ass beating meant getting my ass kicked by u...which wasnt as worse maybe
42. thanks sam- for giving me guidance, and being dans gf, and helping out so much, u really helped out all of us as u have been with dan, thank you
43. thanks javin- for watching out for me? i guess u can call it that, even though u get me into more trouble usually, but it sure does make a hell of a story the next day
44. thanks mish- for not getting pissed when everyone thought we were going out and still talking to me, uve been a really good friend and a good person, no matter wut anyone says to u
45. thanks christine- for well...everything, basically summer was crazy for us, maybe now its over we can move on and go back to when we just had a good time together, but just saying it isnt easy
46. thanks for the ones i didnt thank- u either have A) helped me out B) been a good friend C) keep me goin day after day
47. i hated those last comments, it sounded like a acceptance speach at the oscars...which are really really shitty
48. im done
49. this is number 49
50. this is the truth like it or wutever u can do wutever u want, this is me, basically guitar, love, and friends, thats it, id be surprised if anyone would think otherwise, i dont care about much else, cause nothing else really happens to me, so this is it, wut do u think?