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[fashi0nistuh]

ok so.

i went to my first 'support group' on friday night. i cried the entire time (it was two hours long) i really felt like i was just erupting.. just like, letting out everything i had been holding in while i'm waiting for treatment to begin.

the group is based around God. and i think if i'm willing to take meds and talk to shrinks, why wouldn't i

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[fashi0nistuh]

yeah.. you're right about that. it took me a long time to even realize it was a problem. and what sucks is sometimes i feel as though, if i were anorexic or bulimic, people might take me more serious. unfortunately, society is so hellbent, i'm just viewed as 'fat' or with 'no control' but thank you for your kind words :)

[fashi0nistuh]

yeah, i'm really trying to be very optimistic about things.. like i said, i hope that all this holistic treatment will help me.. because the meds and the shrinks have done nothing so far. i'm starting treatment through MSU (michigan state u) and since they're a really good school, i hope they can help me. it's just very hard because as you said.. an alcoholic doesn't NEED alcohol to live. unfortunately, you DO need food. and that's why it's SO damn hard. ugh.. well december 4th can't come soon enough! wish me luck!