18.
[WEDNESDAY | LATE NIGHT]
I'm trying to bare this place because of her. She wanted me to come home, and I did. But...
All it's been is frustrating.
[All these new bastards come in and think they know me. That I like picking on little kids for fun. I never said I was right for what I did and that kid, was wrong too. But because he's a child, everyone will run to his aid and his defense.
So what if he said was semi-true? That doesn't sound out the fact that he doesn't know me and doesn't know what I've been through. No one cares and surely, don't start now. I won't believe it.
Maybe I didn't clearly tell him what's going on with me. But there's no way he'll believe I have feelings for him. There's no way. I can't tell him. I won't tell him. It'll just make living here unbearable. And her? Heh, there's no way I can be in competition with her. She's fucking perfect. He'll benefit from her more so than me.
It won't be too long before I'm done here. I just hope to anything that she'll come with me. I was blind by my feelings for him that came back to notice how much she cared. With opens arms, she always welcomed me... even... after what I did to her.]
fayt. November 5th. That's all I'll say.
I'm trying to bare this place because of her. She wanted me to come home, and I did. But...
All it's been is frustrating.
[All these new bastards come in and think they know me. That I like picking on little kids for fun. I never said I was right for what I did and that kid, was wrong too. But because he's a child, everyone will run to his aid and his defense.
So what if he said was semi-true? That doesn't sound out the fact that he doesn't know me and doesn't know what I've been through. No one cares and surely, don't start now. I won't believe it.
Maybe I didn't clearly tell him what's going on with me. But there's no way he'll believe I have feelings for him. There's no way. I can't tell him. I won't tell him. It'll just make living here unbearable. And her? Heh, there's no way I can be in competition with her. She's fucking perfect. He'll benefit from her more so than me.
It won't be too long before I'm done here. I just hope to anything that she'll come with me. I was blind by my feelings for him that came back to notice how much she cared. With opens arms, she always welcomed me... even... after what I did to her.]
fayt. November 5th. That's all I'll say.