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[fatallybroken]

Today i binged like a mofo. It was terrible. My new years resolution, like many others, is to lose all my weight. I initially wanted to get to 60kg, because its at the lowest of healthy weight for me, but now, i just want to keep going, till at least 54kg again. So thats my goal. I need to feel somewhat normal, and at the moment I am reluctantly

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[fatallybroken]

im 5ft 11 so i hope i can get there again.
i have a long way to go.

yeah same here. there is so much food here which is really unnerving
hope you had a good xmas :)

[glam_gem]

Yeah I can relate to being a walking pharmacy lol. I was in IP a couple of months back for 3 1/2 months and I was on 2 different anti-depressants, one at maximum dose one at a medium dose, an anti-psychotic tablet at a middle dose, an anti-psychotic depot injection at a lower dose, anti-anxiety meds up to 4 x a day, pain meds (co-dydramol) up to 4 x a day and sleeping tablets at night.
I was taken off a load of meds due to my pregnancy but I'll have to go back on them when my baby is born.

My LW was 31.36 kgs and my HW 48.5 kgs. My LTGW is 37.7- 40 kgs. But I'm sooo much shorter than you. I bet you'll look model-thin at 57kgs. I think that would be a great weight for you. Good luck with your goals hunni xxx

[fatallybroken]

Are you having any side effects not taking them anymore?

I know you said in your post that you feel like the biggest in your family, but gosh you are stunning! you dont look big AT ALL, and im jealous of how pretty you are hehe =]
Yeah i cant wait to get back to that weight, I just wish it didnt take so damn long. sometimes i wish i had enough money to just go and get lipo. HAH.

xx

[flyawaychic]

Aw dear. the past few days have been food food food for me as well. awful. :-/ i'm glad you're making it to work and looking into education. what do you want to take online?

What meds are you goin to take? Plz, plz plz, don't take benzos. I have been hooked on them for five years and have serious repercussions every time i try to get off them.

Do you take omega 3s? they tend to help me with my anxiety. I'm making sure i'm taking them every day from now on. ^^
xx

[fatallybroken]

Maybe you and I can have a healthy eating plan, so we can feel better =]
Yeah, its good working again, every day i work is slightly less pressure for bills next week.
I had issues with benzos years ago when i first met my bf. they amped the whole suicidal thing and it was awful.
They want to put me back on Lorazapam, which i know i shouldnt, but I'm too anxious to do anything, and they want to play around for the next month to see what will suit the best.
What repercussions do you have?
No, i dont, but i will definately get some tomorrow and try =]
I want to study something in business management, or computer admin. Anything to get my brain working, my job is mindless.
xx

[flyawaychic]

yeah, totally. Let's write a plan. Healthy healthy stuff. Maybe raw food/no processed foods?

How on earth did you get off the benzos? How long were you on them? The repercussions I've had are seriously like brain damage. I've had trouble speaking when I stop them, trouble using my hands, vision probs, even walking problems once.

I've been taking omega 369s for 2 days now and my brain is in better shape. I'm reading more quickly.etc.

Good luck with your new job plans dear.xx

[fatallybroken]

that sounds good! ill start from tomorrow. i bought a big nashi pear. thatll last me the day :)

i was on them for about 2 1/2 years. i went cold turkey and ended up leaving school. but i really did need them and not long after i started gaining weight. ick.
nothings worth that. not even my sanity.
id rather feel numb.

works going really well :) exhausting. but i need the moolah

xx