as my title explais i am really happy./..well i have to go cant wait to get home and atalk to crystal

yea i had my sn on for awhile but i went straigt to Germantown CRC since friends no longer takes patients under 18 to the CRC. My day sucked i mean i am lucky i got to come home and i am sooo happy now...no more being depressed for me but oh well i am here my cuts are healing really nicley....and as i promised crystal i dont cut my self (hell i ( Read more... )

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crystal really wants me to do my journal so lets see...i am wondering how to prove how much i love her to her...i mean the fact that as long as she is happy i dont care who she is with just doesnt do it for her...and i always express my feeling to her but nope still not enough...grrr she should see that the qoute about not beliveing some telling ( Read more... )

Well i am even more in the dumps but...i am feeling better since i just finished cutting my self...it calmed me down the rush of pain and adrenilin well goodnight i will cry my self to sleep dont know why but that is hwo it is going

all and all a good day i have been working on my dads freinds parners computer...and i got 60 dollars for it...even though i said i didnt want it ( Read more... )

well i feel like shit. Crystal blocked me and i have been soo deppressed that i have zoned out...i cried my self to sleep, i have zoned out of all my classes...i dont feel like eating...all i am doing is fighting the feelings of death and crying...i hope she starts to talk to me and forgives me...i am still going friday even if she doesnt...and if ( Read more... )

why did i let her go why...why did i let her slip through my fingers...now i am either going to kill my self or cry myself to sleep...i am soooo sorry for letting you down...and since you obviously think that i dont want to talk to you anymore i will love you forever...no matter what...i hope you meet someone who has the love respect...for you that ( Read more... )

I just wanna crawl up into a ball and die...and she never hurt me...i just told her love that i love her...and what she doesnt know is that i value her more then my own life...as i a typing this i am cutting my self...and i dont care dont feel the pain..nothing i wish she would just see and understand how much i fucking care!...HOW MUCH!

well i dont fully know what just happened but i think crystal just said that she likes me...i am like so JOLLY...i guess you could call me santa...lol well i think she did so i am going to ask her out this friday...yea that is a plan thats what i'll do i am just waiting on her return now!!! i cant wait to talk to her