"Now, I wish it was last September when we could lose ourselves in crowds everday..."

[fattred1]

I have not had to work in the past 26 hours and suddenly I have nothing to engage my mind except the events of the past 9 months. It happened as I was trying to think of what to comment in McClintick's last entry. This wave of emotions that I've suppressed for the past 9 months just washed down on me and I found myself crying as I sat here

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[tappu]

More and more I understand why you and Dave are friends. You're more alike than I realized.

We're here for you

[sugarbear_1269]

No matter what you choose, how you choose it, or the conclusions that come after, I think those of us that know you well are just gratified to know that you're making decisions that are best for you.

And yes, we're all friend-sick too. Come home safely.

Thank You

[anonymous]

I don't know you personally, but I'd like to thank you for your writings. I stumbled across your journal from another website, and I've been reading for the past few months. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings. My husband and I have been thinking and praying for you, and now we're wishing you a safe and speedy trip home. Enjoy the rest of your life, and know there are others out here who understand the "control" issue...
Respectfully,
Former Navy folks (one who shares your surname)

[b_mubbs]

I don't even know what to say, as usual. I may not be quite as eloquent as you are, but just know that I feel ya', Matt. I guess that's it. If I had a clue as to what I'm supposed to be saying right now, I probably would have talked to you a lot more on IM - which, by the way, I should have. Sometimes I'm a shit friend.

I didn't send packages like I promised and I didn't write you letters when we hadn't spoken for a few weeks. I had nothing to do other than work, and I still managed to take your situation for granted. Christ.

So I'm fully aware that basically nothing I said during this entire year has been of any help. But at least I said it, right? I don't really know if there's anything I could have said or done that would have done the trick. I don't know.

So, from now on, in my guilt, I will try to remember to bring a Ricker Pop when I'm going to hang out with you. Because everyone knows material gifts fix everything!

[gandolf414]

fuck 'em...listen to this cd i made:)...it's almost over, dude...you are just a few weeks away from being with the ptown crew:)...also, i imagine that the setting will matter alot more when you get here. appreciate the little wonders of small town life. they've got me through the last couple weeks...they'll comfort you too.