holy fucking shit.
cant it get any worse? seriously so much stuff has been happening so i will put it in an lj-cut.
it all started a couple days ago when alex and suzanne i guess just decided to get mad at me because i lied to them. which i can understand but they took it way to far and hurt me alot. the emails were so hurtful. after reading their emails i couldnt help it but cry, i just let it out.im so thankful for ashley. she is the most amazing girl. her and i have the best talks. she makes me realize that things i do have effects on everyone else. so i called mike with her and left a voice message on his voice mail, basiclly saying that i dont hate him but we just cant be friends anymore because it is hurting me and everyone that cares about me. and mike knows that i do care about him so much and thats why we both knew that our relationship was not healthly and it had to end. mike, im so sorry it happened like this but i have so much respect for you because of what you did for me last night. you ended our friendship just so easy for me and made me realize that you are a wonderful person you just use your ablitys to be a great person for the wrong reasons. i will never forget you and the good times we shared. thanks for being there. this is last conversation me and mike had.
-mike: "maybe we will see eachother sometime but until then i love you goodbye."
-becca: *crying and studdering*" i love you too."
this must have been the hardeest conversation ever. mike just let it go. and i called ashley crying,studdering barely spitting out my words so she could hear me and she started crying too i think. ashley ann foster you are truely my best friend always by my side and i love you.
max, you were there for me last night and you agreed that what mike did was the most mature thing that he has even done. wow i love you max.
long nights.
it all started a couple days ago when alex and suzanne i guess just decided to get mad at me because i lied to them. which i can understand but they took it way to far and hurt me alot. the emails were so hurtful. after reading their emails i couldnt help it but cry, i just let it out.im so thankful for ashley. she is the most amazing girl. her and i have the best talks. she makes me realize that things i do have effects on everyone else. so i called mike with her and left a voice message on his voice mail, basiclly saying that i dont hate him but we just cant be friends anymore because it is hurting me and everyone that cares about me. and mike knows that i do care about him so much and thats why we both knew that our relationship was not healthly and it had to end. mike, im so sorry it happened like this but i have so much respect for you because of what you did for me last night. you ended our friendship just so easy for me and made me realize that you are a wonderful person you just use your ablitys to be a great person for the wrong reasons. i will never forget you and the good times we shared. thanks for being there. this is last conversation me and mike had.
-mike: "maybe we will see eachother sometime but until then i love you goodbye."
-becca: *crying and studdering*" i love you too."
this must have been the hardeest conversation ever. mike just let it go. and i called ashley crying,studdering barely spitting out my words so she could hear me and she started crying too i think. ashley ann foster you are truely my best friend always by my side and i love you.
max, you were there for me last night and you agreed that what mike did was the most mature thing that he has even done. wow i love you max.
long nights.