For once, could you be the one to wipe away the tears?

im gonna try this, but i dont know how far i will get. this is something that i do not want to express outwardly, and i dont care for ppl to see, but i need help. the very center of me hurts. im not sure what is there anymore. i feel a little sick. ive been able to get to the stage where i can say "well that was that" some of the time, but that ( Read more... )

feeling better. one step at a time. reference your comments. (still slightly sketched)

Eww why do i want to associate with that, please remind me again?! i forgot that there are things that just gross me out that i do not want to play a part in, i guess what i mean to say is that i wish that they just dont happen, you know that there is some form of purity. i cant find truth because of shit like this, or maybe this is me finding ( Read more... )

I need to write my heart out. I want so badly for the words to just pour out like sand from a glass, but my words are too wet, covered in fresh blood.

May 2004 ( Read more... )

it must be because i spoke the words outloud today, openly, for the first time.

finding my way, i cant get the right voice in my head to be the overwhelming volume that carries me. i have a source, but exhausted everything else. no idea what im talking about? you're there. that's what i am saying. i need to be at the top of a mountain screaming at the top of my lungs, get it all out, what's left anyways. thats a great idea ( Read more... )

A BREAKTHROUGH!...MUSIC FEELS GOOD!

this time i am just pissed. and its not that i dont care its that i do care. its not a revenge or a debt to be payed off its just a fuck you. im not even going to make sense right now. want to talk about happiness? ya thats when you call. feeling like i cant go on and i dont give a shit to reach out, i'm fucking tired. i'm so god damn tired. my ( Read more... )