i am so full of self-loathing right now. i just hate so many things about myself. i hate that just when i was starting to feel well-adjusted and like i finally found myself, i went and changed, and now i have to start all over again. maybe i need to change something. break out. get away. something.
it sucks when you realize just how alone we all are. no one will ever understand me the way i want to be understood. i've changed, and i'm really starting to hate who i've become. i feel like i can't even live up to who i used to be, and i hate it. i'm not good enough for anyone, including myself.