mmm...im totally getting sick,but im not feeling bad yet (acually im just really out of it so am kinda happy). have lost all anger toward katie...and have consiquently decieded that second-hand attention is better then none at all (what can i say, im really just a pathetic attention whore)

...i had alot more stuff to say but i cant remember...

fuck everything and everyone and the only people who bring me joy and fuck my life over so much it kills me. godamnit!!! i want to actually mean somthing to a boy one of these days.fuck everything. what the hell kind of world is it where an 18 year old girl can suddenly realize there is no such thing as love... because there isnt, just a bunch of ( Read more... )

dear god ive been at the playhouse for like 18 hours this weekend (including friday)...twas allright though,even if the lighting techs are in danger of a horrific death.i look like little miss muffet in my cosume though >.< could be worse;james has to wear a girls shirt,mullet wigs are abundent, and the less said about robbie's costume the better * ( Read more... )

thank you

im living in anothers shadow, my whole life ive been the tag-along and now is no exception. you cant control who people like, you cant control a damned thing about them. ive been pushed aside for boyfriends,work,and siblings. im kept around for...what? a last minute friend? out of habit? the fact that youd feel bad if you just wanted to be friends ( Read more... )

my heart hurts and im not even sure why. its the weirdest feeling, like somthing really bad just happend and i dont know what it is. maybe i want coffee...yes, thats it! lack of coffee ( Read more... )

just killin time until they make me go back to class, im on spare again. (yes yes, im a slacker, i know) i love history, cool subject plus cool people; anne,ayla,dustin,chris (am hoping to get a response from him to replace 'the colonist car' remark of grade 10...it shall be rememberd forever.)so not too shabby. am dreading this afternoon however, ( Read more... )

im trapped in a half written surrealist movie...one with english subtitles. i know that makes no sense but when i cant find a right adjective i just string words together to get the point across. but yes the last 24 hours or so have felt like i have a fever...i cant think right.like i cant put my thoughts in a logical stream, and then somthing ( Read more... )

mmm...non-instant coffee...^_ ( Read more... )

*tears* they ditched 'miami vice'!!!!! one day after i start paying for the station (as opposed to preview month) they yank my favorite show!!!!! man that pisses me off, im so writing an angry letter ( Read more... )