uggh i totally got lead on hardcore .it sucks it sucks so bad .i mean he didnt have to say that he felt the same way.uggh he didnt have to be an asshole about it .ok maybe he wasnt being an asshhole but he should have been clear on things ...blech i hate dinosaurs

sometimes i just dont seem to understand myself very much .i mean am i like some manic depressive or something.i know everyone goes through their teenage angst i hate myself and the world is against me type thing,but what if its not a teenager phase.then what is it?i wish i could just analyze my life and put into categories so i can figure out how ( Read more... )

so yeah im so dang frustrated .words cannot express these feelings that i have .i feel so alone ,i dont know who my real friends are,if i ever had real friends .my father is an asshole,but i just cant say those type of things about him anymore.he told me he has a mild case of leukemia .he wants me to move back ,i told him if his condition gets ( Read more... )

yeah so today i spent thanksgiving with mayhem and elizabeth,the we karaoked .then i went home.and mayhem is spending the night.then we hung out with kevin and watched crash,its pretty intense.then yeah .we went home .and now were gonna sleep so yeah

so today i have an interview with macys....my second interview,maybe htis time ill get hired .man i suck at life .....i need my cell phone back

sometimes i just dont understand why the outcome of everything i do always is bad .its as if i can never freakin please my dang cousin .i meanwhat the fuck does she want from me ,im trying as hard as i can to be a good kid .shes lucky im not a drug addict and that im not whoreing myself out to the city which iam tempted to do so ....ugggghhhhh

so um today should be fun .it better be fucking fun .i fuckin did someones essay to get 10 bucks .shows how desperate i am .

gah i dont understand him.i just dont understand him at all.if this is all happening because what i think it is then he is not the guy i thought he was at all.that sucks that really sucks.i thought he was a pretty amazing kid,i mean the first guy i met who likes all ,and i mean ALL the bands that i liked .ahh whatever why am i even wasting my time ( Read more... )

so life isnt going as great as i wish it would,but does it ever?my father really is an idiot,he got sued for breaking up a fight at a church festival.who fights at a church festival?why does the whole world have to be such fucking assholes.im lonely i need more excitement in my life.

well i dont write in here much ..i dont even know anyone that has live journal

i think my friends need to get livejournal