i want to shoot all shiny happy people over and over again. you know, the kind of people that just always appear to be happy and will always deny any sad thought or moment in their life as nonexistant. death, i utter to them, oh yes, death will come for you, painful and slow...i want to torture all the happy shiny people because of the level at ( Read more... )

So someone went against emperor's law, which was basically the draft, and married couples in secret. So what does he get in exchange? His head gets chopped off and he gets his own patronage as the saint of lovers. Candy and flowers for all at the expense of his death. hooray. Call me cynical but why do we celebrate someone's death as a martyr? I ( Read more... )

So I just remembered that I still have this thing, thanks to Tini, and I have no idea how long it's been since I wrote in it. I think it's because Sean mentioned something about a journal entry in Evan's journal that read somewhat shockingly. Curiousity killed the cat, I add Evan and in the process remember this thing. I really hope I find a place ( Read more... )

so do we really feel surprised when something we deny ourselves turns into a bloodlust craving? like junk food, cuz we know it's not good for our bodies and even though our bodies need some amount of sugar we don't comply. then we feel the frenzy. lemmie put it this way. i want steak so bad right now that i'm willing to go in the buff to a steak ( Read more... )

so i feel sick. i've felt sick for awhile. it just seems to be getting worse. either i feel numb or i feel sick. take your pick. i know i should go to the doctor but i hate doctors. i hate hospitals. just have to get better. tired all the time. don't know what it could be. really, fuck this physical body.

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so, yeah, I went to visit sean in boston and had a blast. we went to see a midnight showing of "LOST BOYS". oh my god it was awsome. then we went to a late night sushi bar and gorged ourselves with sushi and...plum wine...are you supposed to eat the plum? sean tried and from the look on his face i think the answer is no. then we couldn't help but ( Read more... )

Ah, Dune. Will anyone ever be able to fully understand it? It's interesting what you'll watch when you've had no sleep. Still haven't been able to get a hold of Mikie. That's really frustrating. Plus Dan backed out of the apartment deal. And now Greg's unsure. So I may be fucked over again with roommates. I know I'm not supposed to be mad at them ( Read more... )

So now I have all these massive costume requirements like a cloak, a completely new costume, facial features, symbols drawn on my skin, and a staff. I'm actually not allowed to come in game without them according to game staff. It's really cool and encouraging but at the same time a giant pain in the ass. I even have jewelry I'm required to wear ( Read more... )

so i'm hanging out with some people that i don't normally hang out with and it's making me realize how shitty love can be sometimes. it's sweet and sour at the same time and i want to cry for what it does to people. i'm somewhat glad i'm not mixing myself up in this stuff anymore but at the same time, i wish i had someone who could be devoted to me ( Read more... )