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Feb 13, 2012 15:11

Saturday I woke up trying to be positive, but feeling really... well, depressed. Combined with the increasing level of pain I've been having and I ended up having a fun little psychotic (did I mention that psychosis is actually a symptom of Cushing's?) episode. It was pretty much set off by the fact that my arms/shoulders/wrist got so bad I nearly ( Read more... )

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firebyrd February 14 2012, 05:52:38 UTC

Holy crap, she is tiny. I hope the solid food helps.

fealubryne February 14 2012, 10:35:02 UTC

She's tiny, but... there's no signs of anything being wrong. She eats plenty, she doesn't look like she's starving, she's on target as far as development goes, etc. She just, y'know, isn't very big. It's frustrating because the worrying mom part of me is flipping out over, "Oh my god, what am I doing wrong?!" while the instinct part of me is thinking, "If it wasn't for the fact that we keep measuring her up against other babies, nobody would have a clue there's something 'wrong' with her!" I mean, she's growing. Not fast, but she is. She's still in 0-3mo clothing, some is too big still, but some fits perfectly and a few of the smallish things I'm packing away. So it's not like she's not getting any bigger at all. And it's pathetic, I always feel the need to defend it. Because, y'know, obviously the fact that my kid is such a runt is my fault.

UGH, kids. Constant stress-makers!

firebyrd February 15 2012, 00:49:11 UTC

Yeah, that's why I didn't say anything other than that she was tiny. You're taking her to the doctor, I'm sure your mom the nurse sees her all the time, so if there was something wrong, one would think it would be obvious. Real failure to thrive infants aren't growing, they're sickly, etc. But I absolutely understand why that's worrisome. I've had to actively clamp down the worry regarding Bea and she's still on the growth charts, even if it is the bottom. The thing is, with a bell curve, which these sort of statistics fall into...there are the extremes on either end. Not a lot, but they exist, and unfortunately for your nerves, you got one of the ones on the faaaaaaaar left of the growth scale.

thistle_chaser February 14 2012, 16:59:47 UTC

Maybe she'll just be a small person? I'd think short people start out smaller anyway... But I'm so very much not a doctor!

So sorry about the pain, too. I know just how you feel. It's ALWAYS THERE. Then the moment it stops is so great. It boggles me how fast the enjoyment of 'not in pain' fades.

Hope health things get better soon! As better as possible! <3