worthless whore

[fearydust]

Fuck Life!!!!

Fuck everything that I've said.

Fuck everything that I've done.

Fuck everything that I've stood for.

Fuck everything that I've ever told you. It didn't mean shit! Everything I've ever done has been shit. And ment shit!

I am shit and that's all I've ever been. Is shit. A worthless piece of shit!

I dont even know why I am here anymore.

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[i_lost_her]

*holds close*

[fearydust]

It's all been a lie. My whole life has been a lie!
Im just a big lie, disappointment, disgrace..

[peckerberry]

You did NOT fuck up my life. Dont EVER think that. AND...dont EVER say that you are a stupid worthless whore who deserves to die. You are not a bitch or a stupid ass slut. You deserve only the good things that happen to you. The bad shit is just there for you to learn from. You are NOT fat..if yer fat what the fuck am I? and you are deffinately NOT ugly. You are not easier on yerself at all. You actually need to be easier on yerself than you are. You are not going to get anywhere being tough on yerself. I wish we coudl be okay. I wish things could get better. I wish we could be happy, normal people. I would give anything to go back to when I was three and try to fix things and stop them from fucking up. I really do.. =( *hugs* I love you honey.

[fearydust]

But I feel like I have fucked up your life, and everyone else's. Especially Ryan and Steve's..
I feel like I am a bad person, and a bad girlfriend.
Everything will never be okay for me again. It's my fault that my mom and dad split. Because dad didn't think I was his kid. So if I wasn't born he would have never thought that and my mom and dad would still be together. Im such a fuck up. I'll never really be happy. And I will never be a normal person. there's nothing for me? I have you and some other friends..but sometimes I don't even feel like that. I feel weak. I can't be weak. I am sick of feel like I have nothing to live for when I have you, and my friends:(

I just want someone to actually love me, for me.
and I am not talking about friends loving me. I mean a boyfriend. sure I don't need one, but I felt that kinda of love when I was w/ those two guys. And I feel like that's the closest I will ever come to someone actually loving me like that.

*shrugs* Im done rambling like a fuck.

[peckerberry]

But I feel like I have fucked up your life, and everyone else's. Especially Ryan and Steve's..
I feel like I am a bad person, and a bad girlfriend. NOT TRUE AT ALLLL!:|
You are not a fuck up. Your dad is just an asshole. He deserves to be shot in the fucking head. I love you and I always will. but, I feel the same way... I know how you feel though. I dont feel loved if i'm not with somebody. ya know? *shrugs* I LOVE YOU!

[fearydust]

I love you too! But I feel like it is true Tasha. I can't help it.
yeah my dad might be an asshole but I still feel like its my fault..Him and my step mom both deserve to be shot in the fuckin head! And exactly how I feel!