thoughts on stuff worth thinking about...
so, i was reading this magazing last week, and it had an interview w/ alexis bledel. inside, she said that looking back on the HS years, she realized how much she let the littlest things get to her, such as, if someone was kinda bitchy to her, she'd be so upset (roughly paraphrased).
maybe some people don't act kinda bitchy, they ARE kinda bitchy. or they're just bitches.
that's what HS is all about, huh? drama, whether fake or real, somehow manifests itself into everyday life.
it's good for rough-skinned people, who can just laugh things off. for the thin-skinned, perhaps it can be used as practice for the real world, where not everyone plays fair. where not everyone wishes to be nice to everyone else. where people have the need to feel superior, and they do so by putting others down.
this weekend, i was talking to bessie, and somewhere in our convo i responded that she could be quite intimidating. and she tells me, "well, i don't want to make friends with everyone."
my first reaction was, "huh..well, that's kind of mean," b/c i try to be nice to everyone (sometimes it does not work). however, now i realize that aloofness to most and friendliness only to FRIENDS can be a much better + safer option.
b/c if i am friends with everyone, i am able to let everyone affect me. usually, people care what they friends think (effects=conformity, peer pressure, etc. unfortunately), but they wouldn't give a fuck what their enemies think.
& somehow, i seem to hold grudges, over SEEMingly trivial things. however, i can't let go of something when there's no closure. when i feel like i deserve an apology, i won't exactly be sunshine & rainbows if i don't get it. :P
thoughts on "friend webs.": i wonder if it is true that everyone is interconnected. would it really matter if one person is taken out of the mix? can people go on? hypothetically, would life go on as the same if circumstances were different? if people were friends with different people?
obviously, i've spent some time thinking about...this shit. perhaps if i go into the humanities or psychology in college, i'll research and write some kind of thesis on this phenomenon. grass isn't always greener on the other side & etc.