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wow, i have developed a habit of writing the subject down as anything i see. that subj was from a postcard.
today was an interesting day. not bad, not good, just, well..'interesting.'
international club--i have discovered hummus. well not, discovered, as in napoleon 1492 or something. but it is sooo delicious..but then i found out it's made out of chick peas.
i'm vp of activities and denise is vp of publicity next year. hahah this is funny. we're cohistorians this year and we're covp's next year. rock the house :) yay. ooh. student council elections are tomorrow too. vote for denise :) she knows what she's doing.
i think it's cool how so many people are taking the initiative to run for something this year. i don't like how there are bazillions of signs everywhere--they're inescapable. at first i admired how some candidates made so many signs, so publicized. but then i got sick of seeing the same names and colors, and felt that they were killing trees. i felt somewhat evolved in this whole process...i actually asked the candidates what they would do upon election so i could make an educated decision.
also, today alice and rose and i went outside to the backyard to dig holes. then, we proceeded to stick tofu containers in the dirt and hope random beetles will just "fall" in, and not be able to slip out with their non-sticky-to-plastic feet. tomorrow rose and i will wake at the crack of dawn to check on the little munchkins. i hope we have some stupid, noncoordinated bugs out there. rose chopped up a poor earthworm, and alice screamed. we were like farmers out there, with huge shovels...
then alice drove me back to the library, where i was supposed to tutor. found out later that the girl is sick w/ something flu-like. so i talked to melinda and ruchira for a while; they were doing orgo. aiiyah. i should be doing orgo right now too..
then, long talk with mom. about my friends. about colleges. i find it's awkward when people ask me where i want to go. suddenly, i feel that i'm too ambitious, especially when they respond that they want to go to Generic School X. i feel that they think i may be too confident, or something...maybe i should just keep it to myself for now. until, if and when i get in..
hmm. i find that when i'm thinking about college apps, i always want to limit the number. i don't want to apply to more than 8, b/c then my time would be too spread out. so i want to pick School X or Y, which one which one? but then again, the applications are pretty much the same, the essays can be fixed and adapted, and it's only $50 or so app fee. wouldn't it be worth it to apply to many schools, b/c it's all just one big lottery. this way, i can actually pick out of the ones i get into, in case i change my mind next year.
huh. my friends. my mom somehow answered a question i was merely thinking about recently, on whether or not people should be mad at the world or at just the person that caused them the grief. i didn't even ask her this, but in her long speech she mentioned that i should not get mad at everyone just because of one person. then everyone would hate me b/c they would think they did something that they didn't. i finally can see the wisdom in my mom's words. usually i just turn a deaf ear because everything sounds so cliche. but it's true, parents can be right sometimes. anyway, i realized that even when i'm in a horrible mood, some people can manage to lift me out of it--and they're amazing, and i tell them that. it's, well. weird. i've been subconsciously trying to experiment with moods, trying not to lift myself out of this frumpy phase. i can tell a lot about people by the way they'll suddenly behave around me...
and now maybe i should get to my homework. ah, my lovely hw. only mere DAYs of school left. junior year is coming to a close :) shall i miss it? dearly. it has been FASCINATING and eventful. i cannot wait for senior year to start. everyone's been waiting SO long for us to finally be the top dogs..haha.
i listened to this song so many times yesterday. it's terrific, and really illustrative of (generic) feelings lately.
"No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far"
"word to your mother."
edit. 12:07 am. oh yeah, i remember the original purpose of this entry. my sister, my dear little sister, erased all the pictures on the camera. eh, actually just my pictures. the ones i took today at international club. she said she thought they were old ones. all this just because mom saw a deer we had to take a picture of. but the int'l pictures were REALLY cute! or they would be, if they still existed in the space-time continuum. darn little sisters. can't they ask before they start deleting pieces of my life? i just want a nice apology. what else is there to do? how about a promise to ALWAYS ask before messing with other people's stuff. and to NEVER delete pictures that aren't yours again, hmmmm? *sigh* siblings. oh well, it's not like i'm historian next year, so i don't 'technically' need them. but still, they were so gosh darn cute! especially the ones of people in togas, fawning over yearbooks, standing in line for hummus, playing "pin the cork on the olive oil" (i'm an olive in a bottle", and ones of Jordan. The Only Senior. haha. krogering with jordan and alice was fun yesterday. mint chocolate chip frappacinos are okay. i think we actually made $5 from the meeting today, after expenses :) ...i think i need to get my sister a camera. she knows how to use this one more than i do right now though. powder puff chowder cuff