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[february]

the feeling when you are reading & mid sentence or mid thought you clutch the book to your chest in amazement because wow. ive never heard it like that before. and all you can do is pull tighter and think stronger

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[andberlin]

i love you, and am so glad to see you in my friends list. and yes to that feeling, i feel like pulling life this last week to my chest and never letting it go.

[february]

thank you
i am out of it
but thank you

[utensils]

last week aj quietly ran away & wrote something down in a note book. he sat on a set of concrete under a lamp post & left me to smoke my cigarettes on a blanket next to a beach. he hid the note folded inside my cigarette packet for me to find & read. he wrote beautiful words of love&devotion. every now & again i pull this piece of paper out & read it & pull it closer&closer to my heart.

christina, i miss you & your beautiful words! i always think about you when i've been neglecting my journal&have every intention to update. becuase you left me messages saying 'no matter what happens, always write!'. &i always swore i would & i never thought i'd get so slack. i think finally, i'm getting back on track. i'm going to lug my computer over to aj's place & hopfully plug everything back together. i just need to buy a new computer monitor. nice big lcd flat screen, lets see what i can find at a good price. only thing left to do is to sort out (most likely a very slow) internet connection until we get our shit sorted.

[february]

i do not remember writing something like that to you
BUT
that is something i would say
write, write, write.
although it is almost always a struggle for me
(you know, with my boyfriend reading all my journals & all)
but always push past the struggle

i have nothing to hide!