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Title: How One Blow Changed My Life - CHAPTER FOUR
Author: Me
Summary: : The title says it all.
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be!
Pairing: Benji and Joel.
Beta: No one, can't deal I suggest you don't read :)
Archive: february24
“Did you read the headlines this morning?” Joel huffed, throwing himself down on one of the sun chairs. It was the first time since the news broke he had used his garden. The paparazzi had been crossing a lot of lines, but unfortunately all Joel could do, was to stay inside.
“No, and I don’t care what it says” Benji said calmly, he was sitting by the edge of the pool and swinging his legs in the water. It had been a hot week, so it felt nice to get the cool wet feeling on your legs.
“It doesn’t seem like you care a lot these days” Flicking his sunglasses down to cover his eyes, Joel leaned back and relaxed into the chair. Staying inside for too long really made you miss just the simplest things.
“I care about what’s important, like you, us, our happiness” Benji shrugged a bit, before slipping his shirt up and over his head. Ever since the news broke all the major magazines had been running stories about them, thankfully it wasn’t anything too massive or too heartbreaking.
“Doesn’t it bother you when a magazine writes ‘trouble in paradise’?” Joel questioned serious, as he looked over at Benji, this being the first time they looked at each other since this conversation began.
“We’ve been on the headlines for so many years, and magazines has written so much crap about us, that no, I no longer care. I know what is real and what is not.” Benji simply said, he didn’t understand why this had such a huge effect on Joel.
“Then there must be something wrong with me, because I do care” Joel sighed and slipped his shirt off before leaning back into his sun chair. Closing his eyes, he enjoyed the hot sun on his skin.
“There isn’t anything wrong with you, Joel. It’s natural to care” Benji glided into the water, he was a bit annoyed with this whole situation. Was he a fool to think everything was to be normal at some point? All he wanted was to walk down the street and hold Joel’s hand, but for some reason, every since the huge revile, everything had gotten more complicated.
But why? All their friends and family was OK with it, all the fans seemed to be taking it OK and those who didn’t, kept their mouth shut about it. But the air was different, when someone spoke, Benji felt overlooked, talked over. Something was off, but then again, it wasn’t everyday a set of twins jumped out of the closet and together.
Complications conquer us
It has been some rough days; everything has changed ever since I broke the news. It seems like people say they’re OK, but act different. I could be wrong and over think ever little aspect coming my way, but do you blame me for worrying?
I was so happy before, even though having to hide my relationship with Benji wasn’t easy, but at least people didn’t look at me and saw a freak.
I haven’t changed and I wish people knew that. Not one person has asked for an autograph, not even the ones who claim they’re OK with everything.
Sometimes I regret posting about it, other days I just wanna say fuck you all and run to Europe and live in a small village in Italy. Which it’ll be, you’ll have to wait and see, just know, things have changed - even between Benji and I, which I never thought was possible.
Posted by Joel madden on June 14th, 2008 at 02:23am
“Either you go out with me or I’m breaking it off” Benji yelled, they had been at each others throats for quite some time now and Joel was pissing Benji off.
“You cannot say that shit!” Joel yelled right back at Benji, arms getting thrown around, it wasn’t his fault he was scared shitless, all he wanted was to spend time with Benji, but he was scared, he didn’t wanted to leave their home, but he didn’t want Benji to leave him either.
Joel was confused, he was angry and upset. The worst thing was though, that he didn’t know why. Benji loved him, treated him so well, their mom came by almost everyday with groceries, their friends called and texted all the time, but something deep inside told Joel that something bad was to happen, it couldn’t possible be this positive, all of it.
Maybe Joel was naïve, maybe he should go out, enjoy himself and catch up with his friends and hit their favorite bar. Skipping out of his thoughts, Joel looked at Benji.
“You cannot stay inside your house all the day, the rest of your life Joel; can’t you see how pathetic it is?” Benji hissed, right up in Joel’s face, close enough to for Joel to feel Benji’s breath on him.
Benji had put up with a lot of shit from Joel, he had tried to be supportive, be the good boyfriend he wanted to be, listened and held him at night, but Benji had had enough, he wanted to go out, he wanted to see his friends, catch up with the DCMA guys and he wanted to have a god damn beer.
Swallowing deeply, Joel swung his arm, his hand hitting flat on Benji’s cheek.
“What the fuck Joel!” Benji shrieked while falling backwards. Joel stood in total silence, in shock from his own reaction. He just stood there as Benji grabbed his jacket and left their house.
Author: Me
Summary: : The title says it all.
Disclaimer: Not mine, never will be!
Pairing: Benji and Joel.
Beta: No one, can't deal I suggest you don't read :)
Archive: february24
“Did you read the headlines this morning?” Joel huffed, throwing himself down on one of the sun chairs. It was the first time since the news broke he had used his garden. The paparazzi had been crossing a lot of lines, but unfortunately all Joel could do, was to stay inside.
“No, and I don’t care what it says” Benji said calmly, he was sitting by the edge of the pool and swinging his legs in the water. It had been a hot week, so it felt nice to get the cool wet feeling on your legs.
“It doesn’t seem like you care a lot these days” Flicking his sunglasses down to cover his eyes, Joel leaned back and relaxed into the chair. Staying inside for too long really made you miss just the simplest things.
“I care about what’s important, like you, us, our happiness” Benji shrugged a bit, before slipping his shirt up and over his head. Ever since the news broke all the major magazines had been running stories about them, thankfully it wasn’t anything too massive or too heartbreaking.
“Doesn’t it bother you when a magazine writes ‘trouble in paradise’?” Joel questioned serious, as he looked over at Benji, this being the first time they looked at each other since this conversation began.
“We’ve been on the headlines for so many years, and magazines has written so much crap about us, that no, I no longer care. I know what is real and what is not.” Benji simply said, he didn’t understand why this had such a huge effect on Joel.
“Then there must be something wrong with me, because I do care” Joel sighed and slipped his shirt off before leaning back into his sun chair. Closing his eyes, he enjoyed the hot sun on his skin.
“There isn’t anything wrong with you, Joel. It’s natural to care” Benji glided into the water, he was a bit annoyed with this whole situation. Was he a fool to think everything was to be normal at some point? All he wanted was to walk down the street and hold Joel’s hand, but for some reason, every since the huge revile, everything had gotten more complicated.
But why? All their friends and family was OK with it, all the fans seemed to be taking it OK and those who didn’t, kept their mouth shut about it. But the air was different, when someone spoke, Benji felt overlooked, talked over. Something was off, but then again, it wasn’t everyday a set of twins jumped out of the closet and together.
Complications conquer us
It has been some rough days; everything has changed ever since I broke the news. It seems like people say they’re OK, but act different. I could be wrong and over think ever little aspect coming my way, but do you blame me for worrying?
I was so happy before, even though having to hide my relationship with Benji wasn’t easy, but at least people didn’t look at me and saw a freak.
I haven’t changed and I wish people knew that. Not one person has asked for an autograph, not even the ones who claim they’re OK with everything.
Sometimes I regret posting about it, other days I just wanna say fuck you all and run to Europe and live in a small village in Italy. Which it’ll be, you’ll have to wait and see, just know, things have changed - even between Benji and I, which I never thought was possible.
Posted by Joel madden on June 14th, 2008 at 02:23am
“Either you go out with me or I’m breaking it off” Benji yelled, they had been at each others throats for quite some time now and Joel was pissing Benji off.
“You cannot say that shit!” Joel yelled right back at Benji, arms getting thrown around, it wasn’t his fault he was scared shitless, all he wanted was to spend time with Benji, but he was scared, he didn’t wanted to leave their home, but he didn’t want Benji to leave him either.
Joel was confused, he was angry and upset. The worst thing was though, that he didn’t know why. Benji loved him, treated him so well, their mom came by almost everyday with groceries, their friends called and texted all the time, but something deep inside told Joel that something bad was to happen, it couldn’t possible be this positive, all of it.
Maybe Joel was naïve, maybe he should go out, enjoy himself and catch up with his friends and hit their favorite bar. Skipping out of his thoughts, Joel looked at Benji.
“You cannot stay inside your house all the day, the rest of your life Joel; can’t you see how pathetic it is?” Benji hissed, right up in Joel’s face, close enough to for Joel to feel Benji’s breath on him.
Benji had put up with a lot of shit from Joel, he had tried to be supportive, be the good boyfriend he wanted to be, listened and held him at night, but Benji had had enough, he wanted to go out, he wanted to see his friends, catch up with the DCMA guys and he wanted to have a god damn beer.
Swallowing deeply, Joel swung his arm, his hand hitting flat on Benji’s cheek.
“What the fuck Joel!” Benji shrieked while falling backwards. Joel stood in total silence, in shock from his own reaction. He just stood there as Benji grabbed his jacket and left their house.