Pre-Finale Sentimentality
So I'm about to start the finale of Merlin, and I needed a minute to collect my thoughts and prepare myself, I guess. I just finished the penultimate episode and I really needed to stop and reflect before I could watch the finale.
Merlin has been such a huge part of my life over the last five years. I know that people in fandom have their own problems with it, and yes, I agree and yes, especially this season I wanted to smack the writers and swipe the script so I could do it myself at times, but none of that changes the fact that I really, desperately, truly love this show. Some of my best friends in RL are in Merlin fandom. Merlin is, I think, the first fandom that I actually immersed myself in from start to finish. It's the reason I joined LiveJournal, the reason I started writing, and hell, even the reason for my username to an extent.
I'm not ready for it to end. I hate change in my life and I hate goodbyes. I had to recently say goodbye to a two-year relationship and it's been killing me. Yes, I'm one of those people who gets immersed in fandom to escape my RL when it gets too tough, and Merlin has always been my go-to. I mean okay, it's not like fandom is just going to up and disappear and I'll still be part of it. But it's still the end of an era for me.
I don't care what problems people (including myself) have had with Merlin in the past. The truth is, this show has moments where it shines so brightly that I just wet myself all over and I always get a little overawed by the intensity of finales so maybe it's just that, but right now I truly love this show and don't want it to end. I love these characters and I love this show and I'm just going to miss it so much.
So here goes. Time for the finale. It's been real, guys.
Merlin has been such a huge part of my life over the last five years. I know that people in fandom have their own problems with it, and yes, I agree and yes, especially this season I wanted to smack the writers and swipe the script so I could do it myself at times, but none of that changes the fact that I really, desperately, truly love this show. Some of my best friends in RL are in Merlin fandom. Merlin is, I think, the first fandom that I actually immersed myself in from start to finish. It's the reason I joined LiveJournal, the reason I started writing, and hell, even the reason for my username to an extent.
I'm not ready for it to end. I hate change in my life and I hate goodbyes. I had to recently say goodbye to a two-year relationship and it's been killing me. Yes, I'm one of those people who gets immersed in fandom to escape my RL when it gets too tough, and Merlin has always been my go-to. I mean okay, it's not like fandom is just going to up and disappear and I'll still be part of it. But it's still the end of an era for me.
I don't care what problems people (including myself) have had with Merlin in the past. The truth is, this show has moments where it shines so brightly that I just wet myself all over and I always get a little overawed by the intensity of finales so maybe it's just that, but right now I truly love this show and don't want it to end. I love these characters and I love this show and I'm just going to miss it so much.
So here goes. Time for the finale. It's been real, guys.