Background: The human brain is essentially a giant pattern matching machine (oversimplification, but rather well accepted). In fact, most of the patterns the brain recognizes are unmportant. To counter this, we have a filter between the subconscious and conscious mind. The conscious mind is only presented with the 'important' patterns ( Read more... )

Good is the enemy of great. Or "Good [ideas] are worse than bad [ideas ( Read more... )

I've been reading a lot lately. Like a lot a lot. It's good, and some of it is even nonfiction (a sprinkling of history and philosophy). Sometimes I feel bad about reading so much though ( Read more... )

So for those of you who don't know, I'm back in pittsburgh doing some pre-TOC recruiting. (You should ping me if you want to do something ( Read more... )

Life is great. Love my job. Like my coworkers. Love my house, like my housemates.

Yet it all feels hollow. I should be happy about this stuff, and I'm not. Something is missing, and I need to understand what it is before I can fix it.

( Meta-angst )

I took a step backward in scope from my last post, at least kind of. This may involve some pseudo math-lookalike stuff, and I apologize if its a bit contrived ( Read more... )

 Sometimes, I'll have a reaction to some event/thing, and the next thing I do is to question/struggle with the validity of that reaction. This is an example ( Read more... )

I'm done with this family. A month from now, I'll be on my way to california, and I plan to stay as far the fuck away as possible from all of them. All they do is disappoint and upset me, and I'm done with it. I love them dearly and nothing can change that, but continuing to deal with them is only causing me more pain, and I'm through putting up ( Read more... )

Yeah. Eating is a serious problem for me. In the past ~5 months, I've dropped from 225 to 194 as of this morning. The first 15 pounds I was kind of pleased with. Not the methodology mind you, but my personal target weight has always been 200-210 range. The second 15 have gotten me increasingly worried ( Read more... )