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I have never felt so alive..
In these past seventeen years and four months, I have never felt so fucking alive..
These past six months have been a blessing from whatever higher power decided to like me right now..
Tonight..
I looked at Chris..
And I almost cried..
I swear I almost cried just looking into his eyes..
"For the first time, it actually feels like we have been together for six months"
Chris said that to me, and I could not have agreed more.
"It's good, though, I meant that in a good way," he quickly added..
"I know," I smiled while running my fingertips down his face..
"I was worried about how you would take that. It's just...we're so comfortable with each other...we're married.."
"I know....I know..."
I could not get enough of him..
I could not hold him close enough..
And that feeling killed me..
"Spend the night.." Chris begged.
"Don't tempt me.."
It was already 11:15 p.m. and I had to get going..
I just didn't want to leave..
"You should wait until my mom gets home. I'm sure Katie would want to say goodnight to you."
"Okay, I'll wait."
When they pulled up in the driveway, I felt something in my heart that was just so weird..
I have so much love for this family. They have been nothing but amazing to me for all this time.
I was worried that the summer was going to somehow pull Chris and I apart, but so far, it has only brought us closer together. The feeling is truly breath-taking.
He is leaving with his father tomorrow for all day Saturday and Sunday. They are leaving to Los Banos to go hunting and what not..
It was funny because I was like, "What am I going to do without you for two whole days!!"
And he was like, "Well, I have to deal without you for two whole weeks!"
Because I am leaving on a cruise in mid-July.
So crazy.
I wish I could just tell everyone in this world how amazing this boy is..
The things I see in him..
I cannot tell you enough how much I believe in him and in everything he does..
I don't even know what to say right now..
There's too much to say..
I'm just in love, you guys..
That's all.