LiveJournal says hi back. It also says, "Holy shit, I am so sorry."
I don't know how I've missed your prior entries, but I'm just seeing this now (and just read back a few to get caught up), and I'm so, so, so sorry for what you're going through. I know we don't really know each other, but reading this broke my heart and I just wanted you to know that someone is listening, even if it's some random chick stuck in a dumb hotel on a business trip.
My advice, not that you're really asking for it: You just have to keep on keepin' on. This is going to take time; like you said, you're making your way to your new normal. Your feeling of something "being off" will resolve... I promise it will. It's just going to take time. You've got a double-whammy to process. Cut yourself some slack, give yourself permission to feel everything and nothing. Feel all the feels. Cry, scream, sit and stare at the wall, poke at your food, talk to the chair. This is all OK
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For the record - you're not some random chick stuck in a dumb hotel. At least not the random chick part, I have no idea on the intelligence of your accommodations.. You're actually one of the few reasons I still remember LiveJournal exists, I still come back and skim my friends list every few days to read you and one or two other people. Your posts are always insightful and well written, and your enthusiasm is infectious. I really enjoy your posts, even if I never comment on anything and actually SAY so
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I don't know how I've missed your prior entries, but I'm just seeing this now (and just read back a few to get caught up), and I'm so, so, so sorry for what you're going through. I know we don't really know each other, but reading this broke my heart and I just wanted you to know that someone is listening, even if it's some random chick stuck in a dumb hotel on a business trip.
My advice, not that you're really asking for it:
You just have to keep on keepin' on. This is going to take time; like you said, you're making your way to your new normal. Your feeling of something "being off" will resolve... I promise it will. It's just going to take time. You've got a double-whammy to process. Cut yourself some slack, give yourself permission to feel everything and nothing. Feel all the feels. Cry, scream, sit and stare at the wall, poke at your food, talk to the chair. This is all OK ( ... )
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