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[fencer_woot]

I have learned something i think is new about my conciousness when i get really mad: my mind divides, and the stornger angry portion tells the weaker, better part (using "you", amazingly) that it is unworthy of everything i've been divinely given and of the world around me. i think this is what results in my self loathing, or at least in part.

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[artiphant]

You have accepted that the angry side is stronger than the "better" side, but which side shows greater strength? The one that succumbs to anger and fear, or the one that perseveres, and still sees the good in the world? Tell Mr. Angry-half to fuck off, and stop acting like he owns the place. :)

[fencer_woot]

just because the angry side is stronger, and it is, it has very little endurance. after only a few hours it goes away. the strength is that it's overpowering, not powerful. if that makes sense.