You really don't make it easy, do you?

[ferretsofglory]

What's with you, anyway? Want it all and don't really care? That's what it must be. Worse, what's with me? Besides the small brain I mean because I'm getting clear on that one. "Are you okay?" You asked me. Well no, not really but what am I supposed to say? Thanks, by the way for haunting my dreams with it too because its nice to know that when I'm

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[bmused]

I hear how angry and hurt you are. My heart goes out to you. :c(

I'm sensing that you're also feeling sort of lost . . . or maybe at the mercy of whatever choices Frank and Jordan's mother are making -- is that accurate?

If so, I just really want to commend and support your efforts to regain a sense power over your own experience, regardless of what they've done/are doing. You posted earlier about potentially getting a dog, which would be a great source of constant love and support. That's an awesome self-supporting choice in that direction. So is choosing to focus on the wonderful way you feel when you're with Jordan, as you are in this post.

You're doing great, even if it doesn't feel like it right now! <3

[ferretsofglory]

Definitely lost. Feeling that she will allow him to come in and take over for my space with Jordan. She took off this weekend because my parents are in town, though I really wish she'd stayed. She blasted me in late night texts that made it all seem like it was my fault and I was causing her stress by existing. It's all just so hard to take. I just don't know what to do.

Thank you for your kind words B, means a ton!