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[fetal_blackout]

I relize now, that I will be alone forever. There is no one there for me. In the end my heart gets ripped out and stomped on.

There is no use.

Love is dead to me.

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[twilitesunburst]

thats not true...

look, i dont know whats going on over there, but it sounds like your in a pretty crappy place right now.as far as circumstances are concerned.

i dont know when you come home, but you should definately let me know so i can bake you something. your circumstances are sucky because you are in the navy, which sucks, your all alone because of this too.
basically you need to get out of the navy...
you need to come home and find what really excites you, and i PROMISE promise promise, you WILL find someone...

they're gonna have to be amazing for making you wait so long...

♥mae

[fetal_blackout]

Yeah I do need to get out of the navy. I want to get my apprencticship up and going. That is one of the few things I think about. I come on the 28th of Dec. Im sure you can bake me something then, Im sure you and Eamon will stop by ATLEAST once while I am home. I would like that.

Maybe I will find someone, but as of right now...my heart is filled with shrapnel that cannot be removed with simple surgery. Only I, can make myself feel better permanatly. That will take some time.

Im just sick of waiting for it to happen.

[e_burke]

I think you should talk to Eli about this. He went through the same thing, and I hope he's gotten over it.

Because it's simply not true. For anyone. Ever.

BUT you will never be happy in a relationship until you are happy alone.

[fetal_blackout]

In a way Im shoved in the middle, Im happy that I live my life for what its worth. Im upset that I have no one to share it with. I have no one to share my feelings with...girlfriendtypething.

I almost want what you and mae have. But life isnt letting me have it.

[e_burke]

Well, I didn't try for it at first. I just learned to get along alone, and stopped looking. Then she just kind of fell into my lap, and it's been more work than anything I've ever had to do ever since...but it's worth it. My advice to you is to figure out how to like life alone, and then you will find someone to share it with.

[tepidvisions]

Rather, you are dead to love.

[fetal_blackout]

Same diffrence

[dorvanthekat]

I've got a little bit more to say on this subject again, but I think it's best said over the somewhat privacy of the telephone.

//the Dorvan

[krisclare]

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