So, I never update. I never do much of anything really, just sit around, thinking about who I was and who I should be... as well as who I've become. It's funny, I have thought about this so often for so long, how I hate the person I am and how I so quickly threw away my potential for no reason at all... It's funny because it doesn't make me ( Read more... )

thought it would be fun to do this with ALL of the lj names ive had ( Read more... )

I guess this is just..
who i am...

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I've spent so much time
fighting
hating
killing
who i was, who i am...

for nothing.

a plethora of excuses to cover the lies.
redemption?
i don't know.

something has to change.

Words cannot express the anger festering within me.
Argh. I can't even type right now.
THe world hates me.
I hate me...
fuck

This headache has been present for nearly 5 days. I'm getting tired of it... Can you dig headaches out of your brain with, say, a spoon? Disinfected spoon, or course. Yarg.

...still fighting it. It's weird, feeling everything the way it used to feel. I don't know if I'm psyching myself out or if I'm having withdrawals. It doesn't seem sane that I would be having the pains and headaches since I never did anything THAT much. Anyway, day..fuck, it's only day 3! Gods, it feels like it's been a lifetime. Ugh. Hatred ( Read more... )

Drugs are funny things. So fun, and so rampant these days... I'm still not sure if I'm addicted to them or merely a thought ( Read more... )