no one let me forget that as soon as i get out of (hopefully) graduate school, i am working for 6 months to a year, saving up money, and then backpacking through europe and maybe parts of asia.
no one let me say that i can't do it for some reason. i won't look back in thirty years and think, "fuck, why didn't i just go for it?"

where i want to go:

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my life would be a lot simpler if i could just love those who love me, and not those who reject me. my life would be a lot simpler if i were less proud, or less stubborn, or didn't feel the need to prove myself. my life would be a lot simpler if i were a lot simpler, but in all of my complexity i understand myself with rather surprising clarity. i ( Read more... )

i didn't put myself out there to get deceived into being treated like this for absolutely no reason. i swear to god you don't even know  you're playing the game, and it's like running head first into a fucking solid wall.
when you've got something to say to me, go for it, but until then don't expect to have a conversation with me.

i know i love learning, but i've never loved to learn so much as i do right now in this art history class. i'm so on top of it, even though it's online and knowing me i should be behind like three lessons. it excites me when i find a work of art in a lesson that i've seen in real life ( Read more... )

i am incredibly freaking bored right now survey.
on livejournal? yeah, i don't know.
i wish i knew what was going on here, i wish this was simpler for me than it has turned out to be.

13 random things you like:
naps
history
excessively long books
nature walks
wandering
organizing
foreign-language films
savanna animals
iced toffee nut lattes
large bodies of ( Read more... )

c'mon, august, do me right this time

seriously, just when i think i've lost all faith in my mantra that everything changes and nothing can remain static forever, things do change! i thought i was going to go insane from boredom/understimulation/loneliness and maybe that four-month panic attack i was having over casey was just made worse by the fact that i couldn't seem to find anyone ( Read more... )

i feel like i've had tachycardia for days, or that my lungs are constricted just so; i don't know why my body is so restless. yesterday was one of the better days i've had in a while, and i'm interested in seeing where this goes ( Read more... )

ahhhhhhhh, there is hope, after all!
oh god, i'm so excited

i'm so over everything