I am happier. Lindsey you are the greatest sometimes (OK I cant lie....everytime). You make me feel better when I see you. How the hell does that work? Beats the fuck out of me ( Read more... )

I can explain it all later, but I very confused as to what to do here. I want and feel this, but feel that too. It's enough to make a mans head spin right the 'F' off.

Just finished walking for a few miles. I feel a little better

Ever wondered what it feels like to get you heart ripped out? Not broken, but completely ripped out. I will tell you now it hearts. It really fucking hurts. I cant believe this girl could do this to me. I fucking loved her. And the worst part is I still do. But I hate her so much right now ( Read more... )

A buddy of mine at the fire house just offered me a part time job working at Fitz Hospital in Darby. I woul d be working as an EMT for one of the local firehouses ambulance crews. They also have what is known as a QRS. Its a car for the EMT to drive around in all day. This will be cool. Especially since he said I would start at $14 an hour. ( Read more... )

I feel soooooooooooo much better today. Me and Lindsey hung out all day. This afternoon we chilled together, alone, and had a blast. And all night she hung with the crew. I am just so happy to know she isnt gone. That makes this alot easier. I have never had a good break-up. They have all ended in "fuck you." This is so different. I am so ( Read more... )

I thought the day I broke up with Lindsey was terrible. Nothing prepares you for what I dealt with today ( Read more... )

I feel a little bit better tonight. I asked a few questions earlier and that satisfied me for now. I am still in total shock, but it is slowly wearing off. I just keep reminding myself it's over....I think it's helping me. We are gonna hang out Tuesday....that also helps. I want to remain great friends. If anything I just want to know she ( Read more... )

I wasn't expecting any of this.....it all came so fast. And I think I am still in shock. I not sure when it will hit me full force....hopefully not soon. I don't want to come out of this shock yet. It hurts enough like this. This sucks alot, but I pray to God this is for the best. That's what she told me, and I want to believe her so badly. ( Read more... )

Just went riding. I am pretty stressed out right now. Needed to kill some stress on the bike. It work, but I think it is a very temporary fix. The beginning of the real fix starts tomorrow.