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[Supernatural]: Chaff Before the Whirlwind

Mar 19, 2012 20:51

Title: Chaff Before the Whirlwind
Fandom: Supernatural
Summary: This is an old dream. (And then it isn't.) Mirror fic of A Sinner in the Hands of an Angry God.
Warnings: violence, torture, darkdepressingfic. like, possibly even for me. Falls into that genre known as "I fix nothing."
Notes: So this is the one I've been prodding at for a while, and ( Read more... )

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Comments 24

marziebarz March 20 2012, 03:56:37 UTC

...if you wrote a Sam POV of Dean STABBING HIM IN THE GUT BECAUSE HE THOUGHT HE WAS A SHIFTER I might have to hurt you. Fair warning before I go read it. /goes to read

marziebarz March 20 2012, 04:03:41 UTC

...WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Excuse me while I go throw my heart in a shredder. OH WAIT NO YOU ALREADY DID IT WITH THIS FIC. The way Sam keeps comparing everything happening him to Hell and Lucifer, it just HURTS. I mean yes this is a thing I think happened hundreds of times in the Cage but at the same time OW OW OW OW OW.

...this calls for more cake.

minviendha March 22 2012, 06:37:25 UTC

...heheheheheheh yeah I read that first comment and was like ....oh ok. XD I AM SO SORRY REALLY I AM but there was really realistically no other way that this one could end, not for me, not with how I set it up.

And oh god, yes. So much worse, here, I think, than all of the times it probably happened before, because Sam knows what Dean is doing, and isn't thinking about it in terms of himself, but in terms of Dean. So yeah.

Always more cake!

marziebarz March 22 2012, 17:12:37 UTC

I knew it was coming. I knew it! AND THEN I READ IT ANYWAYS BECAUSE I HATE MYSELF APPARENTLY. WHY MUST I DO THIS TO MYSELF, WHY. But yeah there's really no other way for it to end. TT_TT

It was super super chocolately and the perfect cure for all of this PAIN. =D

emmram March 20 2012, 05:48:43 UTC

Much rejoicing once I saw you'd put this fic up. (Sam, despite all evidence to the contrary, I love you, I promise.)

This is awesome. The early s7 setting did make it obvious that Sam would be conflating Dean's torture with his experiences in Hell, but what makes this fic special is how exquisitely you wrote it out. Also, drawing upon Sam's infinite guilt and that he'd been dreaming of Dean punishing him long before he'd jumped into the Cage? Genius.

minviendha March 22 2012, 06:38:58 UTC

You know, so do I, but I get the feeling that it isn't mutual. For some reason. XD Hey, you are the main reason this fic exists, actually, because it was being kind of a pain in the ass but I was like "emmram wants to see it!!!" and pushed on through. So.

Thank you! I'm glad this worked for you, and didn't feel too repetitive or anything. I definitely think this is far older for Sam than Hell, and that's what's worse about it, actually, is that at this point it's almost expected. Except then not really.

And um I'm rambling and should be asleep right now.

LONG STORY SHORT THANK YOU FOR NICE WORDS.

emmram March 24 2012, 00:33:52 UTC

Aw, yay, thanks! \o/ Really appreciate it. :D

4422shini March 20 2012, 07:00:30 UTC

OMG So sad!!! I love your ending, Dean being the last spot of light in the world. Gawd, you make my chest deliciously tight!

minviendha March 22 2012, 06:39:19 UTC

:D? Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it.

(Sad is my best specialty.)

sinka March 21 2012, 16:09:02 UTC

You... you... how can you be so MEAN? so EVIL??? Really, I saw this and I was like 'Yeah, a sequel! That means Sam must be ALIVE!!' But nooooooooooo, it's Sam's POV of the story and this doesn't make it better, it makes it a lot WORSE!! it's like twisting the knife and then adding lemon AND salt to the wound ( ... )

minviendha March 22 2012, 06:45:23 UTC

...heh. Yeah. Um.

If it helps, I teared up while I was writing this on the plane? I hurt myself too. All the time. And god, yes, Sam is so messed up in this, and ldkjf what was the most central about this for me is just that, the idea that Sam is fixated the whole time not on himself but on what this means for Dean, because I think at this point Sam sees himself as more or less irrelevant except for his role in Dean's life. Like, he is there to make sure Dean is okay. And not much else.

No, in my mind - Sam definitely goes to heaven, if he does die. Which I'm...relatively sure he does? But you can ignore that! Yeah. No, Sam I think is sure that he's going back down whenever he dies, because I think Sam has assumed he's damned for a while now, but I refuse to believe in that. And dammit together forever okay really. IT'LL BE OKAY. OR NOT.

...hey, you and me both, if it helps. I break all the things I love.

twilightshours April 10 2012, 18:37:30 UTC

I don't even know why I read your fics anymore, I must be some kind of masochist. If only you weren't such an amazing writer. :| Your ability to make readers cry is both alarming and impressive. Everything is just so perfect in your words, it's practically addicting... alas, I will continue to read as much of your work as I can. Thanks, I GUESS.

(No really, thank you.)

minviendha April 13 2012, 22:34:12 UTC

You know, that really goes for everything that I read ever, so I am only giving back the pain the rest of you give me. Or something like that? --thank you so much. /blush I am...almost feeling bad. If not quite. Because it's just too much fun and I feast on the tears of my readers.

Thank you for commenting. You say the kindest things.