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[Supernatural]: Wishing Is Cold This Year

May 05, 2012 18:44

Title: Wishing Is Cold This Year
Fandom: Supernatural
Summary: Dean has his head rather determinedly up his ass, so it falls to Castiel to take this one. Post 5.03ish, from a prompt by checkthemargins about Castiel and Sam h/c.
Warnings: mention/discussion of suicide
Notes: Less Sam/Castiel than I wanted, but about what I expected when I started this. (Someday I ( Read more... )

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Comments 14

mimblexwimble May 6 2012, 05:34:28 UTC

I love the place you show them at here, in between understanding each other and not. I except it's easy for Castiel to love Dean, but to love Sam would be harder, require more effort (I suspect the same goes for anyone who meets Sam & Dean together). I like how you've shown him beginning to realize that that effort might be worth it. Just, really lovely!

minviendha May 7 2012, 17:40:27 UTC

This was a weird one to write and felt vaguely out of character the whole way through. >>

I except it's easy for Castiel to love Dean, but to love Sam would be harder, require more effort (I suspect the same goes for anyone who meets Sam & Dean together)

YES THIS exactly this. Sam does not really make it easy and he's only made it harder as time goes on, which I think is part of the lack of connection thing we see this season, or at least that is my headcanon reason for it, because Sam just doesn't really do people anymore. For their own sake, understand! And his. And you know.

Castiel and Sam friendship where Cas works out that it's worth working for is my favorite thing. Is that weirdly specific?

Thank you for commenting!

phorenice May 6 2012, 11:16:50 UTC

Wonderful fic! Thanks for sharing.

minviendha May 7 2012, 17:40:42 UTC

Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed. <3

marziebarz May 6 2012, 23:54:23 UTC

Oh, man, I love this fic so much. Because just, I don't know, its like this is a building block in the foundation of their relationship, and there are so many lines that Cas is thinking but not saying in here that are so true and are reasons that I absolutely LOVE Sam and Castiel together, and curse this shitty public library computer I am going to come back and flail ALL OVER THIS FIC later because I LOVE IT SO MUCH. SO MUCH I SAY.

minviendha May 7 2012, 17:41:59 UTC

Heee, I thought you might enjoy this one. I just had a feeling. (It was a pain in the fucking ass to write, though, and I'm kind of worried it shows. Ah well.) XD I'M GLAD YOU LIKED IT. Sam and Castiel forever and ever, because yes, this is one way it could start, and I just want them to get to know each other better. I really do.

Why did we not get this in canon is what I want to know. Why.

I am maybe a little indignant sometimes. Only sometimes!

marziebarz May 7 2012, 22:54:18 UTC

THIS IS A THING TO BE INDIGNANT ABOUT ALL THE TIME. ALL THE TIME I SAY. seriously why did we not get to see their relationship grow like we saw Cas and Deans. I blame Jared and Misha for this, since they seem to take up like a third of each gag reel they're together for with the limited number of scenes they have together =P STUPID BOYS.

Ahem.

Anyways.

It is not love in spite of the imperfections, but because of. is one of my favorite lines that you have EVER WRITTEN. Seriously, I love it so much, and just THIS IS CASTIEL BEGINNING TO UNDERSTAND HUMANITY. This is Castiel figuring out human relationships. This is Castiel becoming a little more human. It's kind of beautiful.

You fell for Dean, but Sam can teach you how to be human. YES YES YES BECAUSE REGARDLESS OF THE DEMON BLOOD SAM WINCHESTER IS THE MOST HEART-WRENCHINGLY HUMAN CHARACTER ON THIS SHOW. YES YES YES GOOD I LIKE.

“Sam,” Castiel said, quietly. Sam looked up at him. He looked exhausted. Hollow-eyed. “I think,” Castiel said slowly, “That your brother is wrong about ( ... )

minviendha May 10 2012, 04:23:02 UTC

I just. It really frustrates me. Because there was so much potential there, so much they could have done that they didn't, and it just! Makes me a little indignant. Wasted potential always does, you know.

Oh, gosh, that line you pulled out - the first one, I mean? Was just something that popped into my head while writing this. I think sometimes I write interactions with angels as a way of thinking about faith, at least in the abstract, and my feelings on the world in general, actually, and just. That line does kind of sum up this whole mess of a thing, doesn't it?

That last line that you quoted, though, that was one of the earlier things that I wrote in this. I knew it was coming all along, and part of the writing process was getting Castiel there.

I'm glad you liked this one! It was a pain in the ass to write and I'm not sure I'm pleased with it, but oh well.

Thread 5

vail_kagami May 7 2012, 18:15:23 UTC

I loved this so much! Sammy and his poor, broken confidence, his pragmatically scicidal intentions that are so him, and his concern for his brother... And Dean, obviously worried but still not able to pull his head out of his own ass. Seriously. It seemed cruel that Cas didn't tell him he was with Sam but I couldn't say if I would have done anything else. At that point, Dean simply didn't deserve to know.
I adore stories in which Cas takes care of Sam. Thank you for sharing this!

minviendha May 10 2012, 04:24:48 UTC

Stories in which Cas takes care of Sam are one of my favorite things as well. You wrote a truly lovely one that was one of the first things of yours I read, actually. Still think of that one. And reread and stuff.

I'm glad you liked this one! Yeah, I...think Castiel thought about it a few times, but I also think Cas has a bit of a petty streak sometimes, and I think that comes out here. And I don't think he could even explain it to anyone if they asked, but there's a little bit of this attitude of WELL FINE you don't want to hear you won't hear anything.

Thank you for commenting, as always! I'm...hoping to send you the beta I owe you soon. Like, tomorrow soon. I am so sorry. >>

vail_kagami May 10 2012, 20:16:10 UTC

Tomorrow would be awesome! Please let me know if you can't make it after all, because then I'll post the unbetaed version on schedule and fix the mistakes afterwards. If the beta is there soon, I'll postpone posting for a little bit.

sinka May 9 2012, 11:48:44 UTC

This story is everything that I love about Sam & Castiel relationship. This simply perfect the way you gives us a glimpse inside Castiel's mind and how he feels compelled to help Sam even against his will and good judgement. And how little by little he realizes he actually *likes* Sam and the reason he avoided him is because he felt guilty for betraying and manipulating him ( ... )

minviendha May 10 2012, 04:29:14 UTC

I truly think that part of why Cas is so distant toward Sam, particularly in S5, is his guilt. And the fact that he doesn't know how to deal with it, and doesn't like that he feels it. So he avoids Sam and makes it Sam's fault and - so on and so forth.

Never get sick of reading about different scenarios during their separation, nope. Never ever ever. And yeah, Castiel's not telling him was a little bit petty of him, but I think it...made sense to Castiel. He didn't feel like Dean needed to know. At the end, I think Dean has guessed, yes, is pretty sure, but doesn't really want to know, and yet at the same time really does. I don't think Dean knows what to do with himself here.

Sam is at his most painful to me when he's at his most rational. At his most calm. Here, he's just so...deliberate, about his intentions, so calm. And it just hurts me, it really does. And yes, exactly - it's not because it's the easy way out, it's because it's the logical thing, of course. Oh Sam ( ... )