I need a cure because I'm feeling desperate again and I want not to feel, I want only to burn away all of my senses so that I'll never fall again because getting back up is entirely too difficult and though I'm only eighteen I feel so aged and my body is far too lived in to live anymore... and sure I can preoccupy my mind for a few seconds, but my ( Read more... )

She sat alone in her thoughts for what seemed like days. A pale yet remarkably warm hand touched her wet cheek and smoothed away the little streams that flowed from her eyes before they rounded off her chin and slid down her neck. A noise was heard from outside the window. It was raining again. Perfect... now she had a reason to stay in for the ( Read more... )

Disregard my last post.I remember when I used to be alone. In those times, I thought I'd never have a boyfriend, never get married, never have kids... I really miss those times. No one was around to fuck up my way of thinking or make me think that I could potentially be a much happier person. I used to be strong and independent. The only person ( Read more... )

Random people that have listed me as a friend:

myeyescutglass
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wtf?

So, I started using this Retin-A shit for all the breakouts on my chin. It was getting way too ridiculous, so I called in the heavy artillery. Luckily my mom gets just about any prescription medicine she wants without a prescription. So I smear the stuff on my chin and go to sleep expecting great results, only to wake up feeling like a fucking ( Read more... )

I hate my face. Salicylic acid has become my new best friend.

Let me pose a question to all of you: Do I honestly look weak? Do I look like I have a weak personality? Do I look like I would be easy to hurt? Ok, that was more than one question. But apparently they're all true. Sure, I can still count on both of my hands how many times I've been dumped on by guys, but isn't once enough? Why haven't I learned? ( Read more... )

I fucking hate guys.

( THEY SHOULD ALL BE CASTRATED!!! DIE DIE DIE!!!!!! )

Let me go through the motions again. Just lay back and observe: I'll satisfy you by hurting myself anon. Let me prick my finger and turn my head as the blood touches your lips and drips onto your tongue. Suck me dry. Don't look back. Don't feel guilty and don't regret--that's my job and I've been trained all too well. I can't believe how good I've ( Read more... )

I'm gonna get emo for a sec here...

I want to fall asleep and die right now.