Secret Whispers ~ Chapter eleven | part two

[fighter_of_moon]

PART ONE


Two weeks have passed since Kazuya had met Ueda and had given up the task of waking Jin up, now most of the time talking with him over the phone and then waiting for him downstairs. Of course, the actor had whined and complained about such a change but Kazuya had managed to persuade him in the end and now both of them seemed to have gotten used to this - well, Jin mostly because Kazuya had promised to spend at least fifteen minutes making out with him. Really, his lover was a beast in heat. But it suited him as well seeing as each day he discovered new things like how he loved when Jin whispered low in his ear almost purring like a cat, how he’d be kissed slowly, teasingly and longingly as if he was something to be degusted and not completely eaten and he also loved when Jin only wanted to hold him in his arms and talk about his adventures through America. He had discovered a lot in the past two weeks since he had finally accepted Jin as his proper lover and not just someone whom he had to show something. And he had to admit - it felt so much better.

Of course he hadn’t forgotten about Ueda’s words, no, he hadn’t because they had clung into his heart like the thorns of a rose. He knew that every story has an ending and although he had been the one talking about endings since long ago, Kazuya didn’t want to think of such a thing now. They had a lot of things to do and share together, they needed time to get to know each other and… no, to break up at such an incipient phase it was like tearing apart the feathers of a bird. And right now, Kazuya would be the bird, because he needed Jin in his life more than he thought he might need. So… there was no need to think of endings.

Instead he had better things to think of! Jin had called him last night and had told him that Ueda won’t be able to wake him and he really needed someone to wake him up and Kazuya was his favorite and that he’d love to see the younger first thing in the morning. All of this said on a whiny voice had convinced Kazuya though there wasn’t a need in the first place. But he loved to hear Jin wanting him even in the first hours of the day. He felt loved and damn, he really wanted to be.

That’s why he was now in front of Jin’s door, inserting the key and opening it, feeling like he hadn’t done this in a while. Suddenly a pang of hurt hit his heart and Kazuya thought again of their ending. He shook his head and determinedly walked through the hall only to stop his tracks, blinded all of a sudden by the colorful living. The curtains were pulled and there were bright colored balloons spread all over the room, each one of them catching the sun’s rays in its light flight. Kazuya bent and took one in his hands, sending it flying through the living. It was so like Jin to do such stupid things, he thought as he prodded through the room, enjoying the small noise the balloons made when his feet hit them softly. He stopped in front of Jin’s door and would have opened it if not for the bright red post-it that had him chuckling.

Knock three times and say the name of the one person you think at first thing in the morning as you open your eyes.

The younger one blushed a little as he knocked once… twice… thrice. He took a deep breath and for a moment he thought of saying someone else’s name, knowing very well that Jin would storm out of the room and have his head bit off because he had dared to say he thinks of someone else first thing in the morning. And although it would have made a funny scene to see Jin flap his hands over such a thing, he decided to go with the truth and not make his lover wait anymore.

“Jin.” Kazuya said out loud and pushed the door open just to find Jin lying on the bed, apparently sleeping next to a plush turtle. It was huge and red. The younger shook his head at the sight and almost regretted not having a camera to immortalize such a cute moment.

He got close to the bed and climbed on it, carefully not to wake the actor. He didn’t want to do it yet, not before he’d take the toy-turtle in his arms and hug it. In case Jin didn’t know, he was quite in love with such stupidities. It reminded him of childhood. That’s why he took the turtle and pushed his face into her plush tummy, enjoying the smooth sensation he felt from rubbing his face on it. And it smelled just like Jin.

“Kame isn’t the only one that needs love.” Jin suddenly said, his words having a double meaning. He didn’t move and didn’t open his eyes, just continued to stay lied down as if he was still asleep.

“Is that so?” Kazuya glanced at the still sleeping Jin. “Then who else needs love?” he looked at the turtle in his arms as if he was asking it.

“The person who’s name you said before entering the room.” Jin answered, his lips curling up into a tiny smile.

“Aaah…” Kazuya made a thoughtful face as he kept nodding. “And do you know what name I said?” he asked, looking a bit worried. “I’m kind of forgetful this morning…” he then added and sighed falsely.

“Kame knows better.” Jin said with a light tone, enjoying the fact that he was able to use double meanings to his words.

“Really?!” Kazuya pretended to be surprised. “Then, Kame-chan, whose name did I say?” he asked, not falling for Jin’s wish.

Jin pursed his lips into a small pout, obviously not happy with this outcome. “You said the name of the one person you couldn’t ever forget.” He finally said after a short silence in which he gathered his thoughts.

Kazuya noticed the change of Jin’s tone and chose another direction. “Oh! I remember!” he suddenly said and shook the turtle a little. “It was something that started with…” He screwed his face in concentration. “J?” he asked hopefully.

“You’re on the right track, master.” Jin answered, playing the part of the turtle with a slight chuckle in his voice. “But you must hurry or the chosen one might think that you have abandoned him. And he feels lonely enough…” he added with a sigh, enjoying their game but still wishing for Kazuya’s whole attention, not just half.

Kazuya chuckled, but he wanted the game still on. “Then quick, help me with the following letter!” He pleaded the turtle, bowing his head in front of it.

“You have to find the name by yourself.” Jin responded with the same turtle voice, before adding on his normal one - “Like you did the first time.”

Kazuya pouted and sighed loudly. “But if I’ll think as long as the last time, that person might get too lonely and I don’t want him to be so lonely…” He said in a childish voice, whining a bit.

“Then it means you just don’t care enough.” Jin replied with a scoff, opening his eyes and looking at Kazuya with an accusing gaze.

But Kazuya ignored Jin’s gaze and continued to look at the turtle. “Nee, Kame-chan, will he be a fool enough to believe that I don’t care about him?” he asked and there was a sad edge to his voice.

“If you don’t do anything to stop him from being lonely, then he might.” Jin said and turned on the other side of the bed to avoid looking at Kazuya. He knew he was being teased but he had never taken well this kind of stuff, especially when he wanted to get something and that something was being denied to him.

He really didn’t like it at all, Jin thought as a pout formed on his lips, sitting there and staring at the wall with an arm crossed under his head.

Kazuya chuckled and moved towards Jin, taking the turtle with him. He tickled with the turtle’s head Jin’s ear, he himself following the plush. “Was it Jin?” he asked with a cute voice, trying to peer at Jin’s face. His eyes were twinkling with tease.

“Maybe, but Jin is sleeping right now.” The older replied, stubbornly snapping shut his eyes, not wanting to see Kazuya in that second. Maybe the next one, he reasoned with himself.

“If Jin’s sleeping then I’ll go and have fun with Kame-chan.” Kazuya sighed disappointed and pulled back a little. “Jin is sleeping and dreaming of some blonde, Kame-chan…” he then added with a soft cry.

“A really hot blonde.” Jin completed him, a smirk appearing on his face even if Kazuya couldn’t see it.

And Kazuya hit him with the turtle over the head. “Then dream on.” He said with a jealous edge to his voice, taking his turtle and scurrying to get off the bed.

Jin didn’t say anything as he hid under the covers and crouched into a fetus position under them, being completely hidden to the others. “Stupid Kazuya.” He muttered, feeling neglected and stupid for trying to make Kazuya a surprise only to end up like this.

“Stupid Jin.” Kazuya changed his mind half way and glomped Jin, tickling him. “You’re really stupid, you know?” he said and turned the actor to face him. “I’ll kill that hot blonde before you even get to imagine something else besides seeing her.” He poked Jin’s forehead, pouting.

“Well, if you can’t even remember my name.” Jin pouted back, shrugging a little but suddenly feeling a lot better after hearing Kazuya’s confession.

“I don’t need to remember it.” Kazuya replied back with a serious expression. “It’s already carved on me.” He added and moved away from Jin, taking his turtle into his arms. Oh, he knew it was his and even if it wasn’t, Kazuya would get it.

“You were the one forgetful a few moments ago.” Jin proceeded to remind Kazuya as he got up and brought the younger into his arms, letting him rest his back on Jin’s chest as the actor settled his hand around the boy’s waist and his chin on Kazuya’s shoulder. “And I wouldn’t dare to dream about anyone else than you.” He added as an after thought, tightening a little his hold on Kazuya.

“Now you’re hugging me.” Kazuya muttered, hitting Jin once with the turtle’s head. “And what’s with the balloons and this red turtle?” he then asked, still sulking a bit, but now was curious about all of this Jin had prepared.

“I just wanted to give you something.” Jin shrugged lightly, not wanting to say how hard it had been to think at something that wouldn’t cost a lot and would let him live a little longer. “I did promise that I’d tell you everyday how much I love you,” He continued, reminding the younger of his promise after his first encounter with Ueda, “and this is my way for today. Do you like my surprise?” Jin asked with an excited voice.

Kazuya hit Jin with the turtle again. “Of course I like it.” He said with a hushed voice as if he was feeling embarrassed. “You’re a cheesy lover, but I love your cheesiness.” The younger added and smiled as he played with the turtle.

“Then I’m glad that there’s at least one thing you love about me.” Jin chuckled into Kazuya’s ear as he whispered the words with a low voice. “Even if I’m curious if there are other things…” he trailed off, sounding a little thoughtful as he smiled dreamily and kissed Kazuya’s cheek.

Kazuya turned a bit and looked at Jin with a peculiar expression on his face. His eyes were suddenly serious and there seemed to be something on his mind. And most certainly it was, because of Jin’s words, his heart had skipped a bit and was now trembling in excitement. It seemed it had words of its own and only his lips were sealing them. Kazuya smiled a bit mysteriously.

“Curiosity killed the cat.” He said and although he didn’t show it, for the first time, he was considering the words I love you.

“But I’m not a cat.” Jin pointed out childishly, wanting something in return for all the times he had been professing his love for Kazuya and hadn’t gotten anything in response.

Kazuya laughed and moved a little, leaning more into Jin’s arms, now looking at him from below. “But you’ll turn into one if you keep being curios.” He said cheekily and touched once Jin’s nose, a playful smile on his lips.

“I won’t turn because this means I’ll have to leave you all alone.” Jin stuck out his tongue, chuckling teasingly. “So you have no reason to refuse my request.” He added with a knowing tone, even if his eyes were pleading and begging like a little puppy.

Kazuya’s smile faltered a little and his eyes became once more serious, his heart skipping another beat. The younger bit on his lower lip and a mischievous gleam appeared in his eyes, now no longer serious. “What request?” He asked forgetfully.

“Kazuuuu…” Jin whined pathetically, not caring about his image but only about what he was trying to obtain. “Maybe I should also forget about the reason I did all of this today.” He mumbled under his breath like Kazuya couldn’t hear him but knowing that he actually could.

Kazuya narrowed his eyes at his lover. “You’re trying to blackmail me?” he asked with a shocked tone. “You little swindler…” He sighed dramatically, shaking his head in denial at Jin’s behavior. He was clearly feigning disappointment.

“Eye for an eye, a teasing for a teasing.” Jin shrugged innocently as he looked back at Kazuya. “Somehow, you always manage to distract me and make me forget about what I wanted in the first place.” He then added with a thoughtful expression. “I just figured I need to do the same.” He added, his lips curling up into a smirk this time.

“Ah, is that so?” Kazuya chuckled and grabbed Jin’s chin between his thumb and index, pulling his face towards his. “Then let me help you forget more.” He whispered softly against Jin’s lips before closing the distance and transforming it into a sweet and gentle kiss.

Jin answered to the kiss, putting a little more strength in it and dominating Kazuya with his body and mouth. “It won’t work.” He whispered against the younger’s lips, even if he was starting to have problems remembering what it was that he asked, but refusing to acknowledge or let it be seen on his face.

Kazuya chuckled and passed his tongue over Jin’s lips. “Are you sure?” He asked with a low and husky voice. “Cause I can hear your thoughts fleeing from your mind.” The younger added with a smirk and nibbled a bit on Jin’s lower lip before pulling back and staring at the older with daring eyes.

“I’m sure.” Jin replied with a dreamy voice as he stared back at Kazuya. Then he smirked. “Because we’re already late and if you plan on convincing me this way, you’ll be at fault for making me late and I’m sure you don’t want that.” He continued with a simple shrug.

Kazuya snorted and pushed Jin away gently. “I’m glad that you’re more punctual than me lately.” He said with a playful wink and climbed off the bed, his eyes falling on the red turtle. “I can’t take it with me to the studio.” He said suddenly and seemed thoughtful. “I’ll pick it later, okay?” Kazuya then smiled, pleased with this conclusion. “Now, go and dress, Quickly.”

“We’ll leave it in the car and take it later, but!” Jin said as he raised himself from the bed too, cocking an eyebrow at the younger. “I still haven’t forgotten if you want to know.” He said with a laid-back expression, even if his eyes seemed playful and a little devilish.

Kazuya eyed him thoughtfully before a mean smile curled his lips. “Is that so?” he said and leaned to grab his turtle. “But since we’re already running late, we can’t afford to lose more time, can we?” He asked with a fake sigh and took ahead of Jin, heading to the living full of balloons - together with his red turtle. Really, could Jin be less obvious than this?

But he was his lover and Kazuya kind of liked this obviousness at him, it made him cuter and more adorable. Kazuya couldn’t help but get attached to him more and more. But when Jin asked him about what other things he loved at him… it kind of made him anxious. He had let those words casually slip from his mouth, but what Jin had asked was a bit more impossible. Because he hadn’t searched in his heart for such an answer and having now to think at such things had made him unsure, aware. Aware of something he wasn’t that ready to be aware of.

Kazuya kicked some balloons, making them float around him in colors of red, yellow and green. What he couldn’t understand was why there had been a need inside of him to reply with I love you. He wasn’t sure of such words, he wasn’t fully believing in them and he won’t say words half-hearted. But his heart wanted them said. Of such thing he had become aware earlier in Jin’s arms. But it was scarier to have them acknowledge and say them like that. How could Jin say them so easily? How could he say I love you when Kazuya was fighting such words?

Really, Jin was sometimes a puzzle he didn’t know if he’ll be able to finish it any soon. But this… he loved about Jin.

Kazuya looked at his watch and frowned. He had told the actor to change quickly and what the hell he was taking so long?! Was he testing him? The younger heaved a sigh and let his turtle on the couch before moving through floating balloons towards Jin’s room. And what greeted him had him purse his lips in discontent. Jin was under the covers of his bed and most certainly not dressed.

The assistant flared in one instant as he went to the bed and pinched Jin’s ass hard. “What the hell are you doing?!” He asked with a murderous tone to his voice. Now… this was what he didn’t quite love at Jin - his stupid moods!

“Waiting.” Jin replied stubbornly, biting his lips to keep his cry from being heard. To be honest, he didn’t even know why he was upset now, the reason had become forgotten somewhere along the road, but Jin still couldn’t accept that Kazuya was always trying to avoid his questions. He knew he was being a little pushy, but he hadn’t asked for a lot, right? Just to know that he was also important to Kazuya. He had spent his whole time lately telling Kazuya how much he loved him and the younger even had the nerve to ask Jin what exactly he loved about him and forced him - even if he kind of enjoyed the attention - to tell his secret thoughts - even if they weren’t so secret after he had told to a lot of people - about him!! Jin deserved something in exchange, right?!

“To have me kill you?” Kazuya asked fuming. “If you don’t rise up in this instant, I’m going to fucking slap that lazy ass of yours!” He threatened, feeling a bit more than irked by Jin’s attitude. Oh, and he was going to do what he had just said. Yuuya knew this very well. Somewhere in the city, the younger brother sneezed.

“Don’t wanna.” Jin refused to give up and cuddled even more in the warmth of the sheets, pouting and totally oblivious to the younger’s threats.

Kazuya took a deep breath and counted to five before he yanked away the covers and with unexpected force he pushed Jin’s body face down, pulling down his pants, revealing his round and perky ass clothed in black boxers and not giving Jin the chance to react or to even realize what was happening. One slap hurt Kazuya’s hand. “Now you want?” he asked and raised his hand for another slap.

“Are you crazy?!” Jin shrieked, now obviously mad as he raised his head from the pillow to look with a threatening gaze at his lover. “Who do you think I am?!” he demanded to know, fuming and prepared this time for a serious fight with Kazuya. Because… what the hell was this?! Kazuya was mad and was planning on slapping Jin’s ass like he would do with a three-years-old child?! Well, Jin had something to say about this.

“Yes, I am.” Kazuya replied simply at Jin’s first question. “You drive me crazy and you are acting like a spoilt brat!” He added, now crossing his arms defiantly. “Now are you awake and ready to go to work?” He asked, wondering how the hell could they pass from a lovey-dovey atmosphere to such a killing one.

“Well then, sorry for wanting to know if you care even a little about me!!” Jin finally snapped as he rolled over in bed and sat up, looking again at Kazuya with a murdering desire. “Sorry for expecting something from you after all this time!” he added, flapping his hands and turning his back on Kazuya, locking himself in the bathroom before the younger had the chance to say anything.

In a matter of two seconds, the sound of the shower could be heard from inside the bathroom.

Kazuya looked angered at the bathroom’s door, now completely shut in front of him. “But I do care about you.” He said through gritted teeth and took a pillow and threw it into the door. Stupid Jin, he thought as began to do the bed, the only thing able to calm him down was to do some cleaning. Maybe he had exaggerated with his actions, but Jin had been asking for it! And maybe… still he had overreacted, but he had been angry and if he thought about it, perhaps it wasn’t Jin’s childish attitude that angered him but his own incapability to admit or to say what he truly felt about his lover. Kazuya gulped and looked at the bed, now already done. He sighed and sat on it, hiding his face between his palms. And he stood like that until Jin came out from the shower.

The older stopped in his track, not really expecting to see Kazuya and figuring that he had already left. He stayed in front of the door for a few moments, only with a towel to hide his lower part and another one on his wet hair, looking at the younger and trying to muster courage to talk to him. He knew he had exaggerated too and Kazuya had been honest from the beginning and had said that he didn’t love Jin and never will. It was his own fault for causing such a ruckus and asking for more than he was allowed to have. After all, he was happy just by being with Kazuya like this and he didn’t need anything else.

Jin sighed and silently approached the younger, crouching down on front of him. “Kazuya…” he said his name with a soft voice and gently lifted his head to look him in the eyes. “I’m sorry.” He continued with a voice full of regret, blaming himself for being impatient and thinking that he had any rights over Kazuya.

He didn’t.

Kazuya’s eyes sparkled with guilt. “What for?” he asked with a low voice. “I’m the one that makes you this way, so I’m the one who’s sorry.” He continued and stopped for a moment, his hand covering Jin’s. “And… I c-care about you.” Kazuya’s eyes flickered away from Jin one’s. “It’s just that I’m not that…” He was a loss of words, so he bit his lower lip in order to search for them. “I’m not that good in showing you or… telling you.” Kazuya added and looked back at Jin, looking helpless.

The older smiled widely. “I know.” He said with a small smile. “And that’s why I’m sorry. I know you’re in this relationship because you want to show me that I don’t really love you.” He added and lifted himself up a little to place a soft kiss on Kazuya’s forehead. “And I’m sorry for pushing you and asking too much from you.” He smiled again in a reassuring way.

“No!” Kazuya said immediately, looking confused at Jin. “I mean… it was like this at first, but now… now it’s different!” He quickly said, a bit hurried with his words, trying to convince Jin that it wasn’t like this. Sure, he had said this in the beginning of their relationship, but… weren’t they different now?!

“Really?” Jin asked with an uncertain voice, his eyes glittering with hope. After all, it wasn’t his fault that he was feeling so insecure and was this childish around Kazuya because he wasn’t getting what he wanted. He wasn’t blaming the younger either, but… it was complicated for them. Too complicated. “I mean…” he gulped and stared into Kazuya’s eyes, trying to detect his honest feelings, “it’s different?” he asked, sounding too hopeful and resembling an idiot too much.

“Isn’t it?” Kazuya replied, feeling as confused and unsure as Jin. “I’m not the only one feeling this, am I?” He laughed nervously and passed a slightly shaking hand through his hair. It was indeed hard to talk about his feelings. Especially if it seemed to be one-sided.

“Kazuya,” Jin sighed and shifted his hand to caress the younger’s hair with soft moves, “you know I love you.” He reminded the boy with a gentle smile. “What more can I say to convince you that I’m serious and I really want to be with you?” he inquired, sounding a little hurt by his own words and by Kazuya’s attitude too.

Kazuya bit onto his lower lip. “I wasn’t at first, but now I’m convinced. You don’t have to say anything to try and convince me anymore.” He replied and his lips curled up a bit. “And I want to be with you too.” He then added with an undertone and looked embarrassed, his cheeks flushed. “I’m just not good with words and to express such things like you do.” And it was true, as good as he was with dealing with directors, managers, important people, when it came to the ones he loved or felt love for them, he was just hopeless. Wait… love?!

Jin smiled brightly and raised himself to sit on the bed, next to Kazuya. “I know that.” He said as he proceeded to hug the younger, squishing him in his arms. “And that’s why I’m grateful if you say these things, but try to understand that I can’t help but feel helpless sometimes.” He then continued with a small voice, as if he was afraid to be heard. “And sorry for being so childish most of the time.” Jin added with a sloppy smile as he detached himself from the younger and looked into his eyes. But the childishness was part of his insecurities so maybe these fights will disappear as their relationship will become more stable.

Kazuya shook his head and chewed on his lip a bit more. “It’s okay.” He mumbled, letting his head down, not wanting to look at Jin for now. “I love this childish part of you too.” He said and tried to look up at Jin, but he closed his eyes as he had been slowly becoming aware of Jin’s bareness. Especially since he had been hugged, the memory of their first night together came flooding at him, making his body sizzle at the contact with Jin’s damp skin. And his after shower smell was making him feel a bit tipsy. He was crazy really… here they were, having a conversation about their feelings and he was sexually reacting to his lover’s naked body! Really… what was wrong with him?

“And I wouldn’t mind to hear that more often from you.” Jin chuckled, not noticing the thoughts that were passing through Kazuya’s mind. “In fact, I’d love to hear more of it tonight. My place. Eight o’clock.” He proposed, his eyes betraying the fact that this was what he wanted from the beginning.

“Eh?!” Kazuya looked up immediately despite his first refusal, his cheeks flushed and his expression a bit lustful. “Umm… why?” he asked with a quick lick of his lips, trying to focus his stare on Jin’s face, though there were a few droplets of water that went down Jin’s neck, then his collarbone and circled his brown nipple before sliding down and down… Kazuya looked up at Jin, more flushed than ever. His mind was definitely not in the right direction.

“Because my surprise doesn’t end here.” The actor announced with a proud tone, puffing his cheeks and trying to look intimidating but managing to resemble a child yet again. “I still have something else to give you and I want to do it tonight. Or my neighbors might be disturbed by the sounds if we start now.” He added innocently, thinking that it was still early in the morning.

Kazuya’s mouth fell open. “E-eh…?” he asked with a small voice, his eyes widening at Jin’s words. It he could get any redder than he was already, Kazuya would have definitely turned into a tomato. He licked his lips and his mouth felt dry. “Umm… umm… s-start?” he stuttered, not knowing what else to say and not being able to keep his eyes in their place, flickering down Jin’s body which was a curse and bless in the same time. Kazuya gulped and slowly put some distance between him and Jin.

“Don’t bother your pretty face with this, you’ll find out tonight.” Jin replied a little amused as he stood up and turned to his dresser to search for some clothes. He stretched his body and he found out a moment later that he had been careless enough to let the towel slip from his waist and land on the floor. Jin looked at it with an annoyed expression but then he shrugged and ignored it, continuing to search through his clothes with his ass up in the air.

Kazuya yelped and totally climbed up the bed, his hand covering his open mouth as his eyes couldn’t tear themselves apart from Jin’s body… ass. Then he covered his eyes with his hand, though you could see him pry through the fingers, the sparkle of lust in his brown orbs. He brought his knees to his chest and sat like that, hands covering eyes and mouth, silently lusting for his lover. Kazuya closed his eyes as he felt himself grow hard and he squished his legs together. Really, this was embarrassing.

But Jin didn’t notice anything as he was busy with his clothes, thinking that he would be late yet again -and again because of Kazuya. He picked up some boxers and threw them on, grabbing a pair of jeans and a random T-shirt to complete his outfit. When he was done, he turned to Kazuya and smiled brightly at his lover who was pretending that everything was fine and nothing happened. Only that… something seemed weird.

“What?” Jin asked, lifting an eyebrow and looking curiously at the younger who was now pressed against the headboard of the bed and seemed extremely suspicious to Jin even if he tried to act normal.

“N-nothing.” Kazuya squeaked and tried to smile and relax a bit, though his body was tensed as a bow. He had put his hands down as quickly as he could when he had seen Jin turning towards him and had placed them around his knees, holding them dearly and trying to wear an innocent expression, as much as innocent it could get when all those perverted thoughts were running through his mind and then rushed to his loins. “C-can we go?” He stuttered once more, but even as he asked this question, he didn’t move from his spot. Instead he was eyeing Jin with a mix of plea and lust, silently wishing for him to exit the room first.

Jin watched Kazuya for a while, trying to understand what was happening and why was the younger acting so strange. Could it be that he was nervous because of what happened earlier? But why? While Jin knew that Kazuya wasn’t that keen on sharing his feelings and that it took a great amount of courage for him to do it and express what he really felt for Jin… was this the reason for Kazuya’s weird behavior? Jin couldn’t decide if it was this or something else, but he was determined to get to the bottom of this. So he did the only thing Kazuya didn’t want him to and got closer to his lover, climbing on bed and still looking with worried eyes at him. “What’s wrong, Kazuya?” he asked with a kind voice, lifting his hand to caress the younger’s cheek and being scared that he might be sick or something like that.

Kazuya flinched at the sudden touch and hid his face between his legs and chest, not being able to face Jin anymore. “Go first.” His muffled voice could be heard and there was a plea in it. “I’ll follow in a minute or so.” He said and gripped tighter his legs, his fingers clutching the rough material of jeans. Really, Jin couldn’t read the atmosphere around him?! And the jerk had walked naked around him too! It was the first time he got aroused by a man without being touched or induced into a sexual state. He was the worst and it was the first thing in the morning too!

“I’m not going anywhere without you.” Jin said with a determined voice as he grabbed Kazuya’s hands and pulled the boy towards him, forcing the younger to look into his eyes. “I…” he wanted to say but stopped in the middle of his sentence when something from Kazuya’s eyes caught his attention. Something seemed to glitter very powerfully and as Jin studied it more, a smirked appeared on his lips. “You’re horny.” He simply stated, suddenly feeling really proud of himself because he realized what was the matter with Kazuya.

The younger scowled and pushed Jin away. “Took you long enough to notice.” He mumbled, not denying this fact and looking at the wall, now all of a sudden very interesting. “Now let me sulk.” He demanded and curled once more against the headboard.

“Why should I let you sulk when I can help you with this?” Jin said with a devilish voice as he got close again to Kazuya, settling one of his hands into the boy’s hair while he let the other one roam over his chest and stop above the bulge from his pants. “Do I look hot when I’m naked?” he then asked with a whisper, biting Kazuya’s ear and chuckling against it.

Kazuya’s mind blanked and his body quivered in expectance. He bit his lower lip as his fingers curled around Jin’s wrist, holding his hand from doing anything. “Fuck, Jin.” He said with a half moan, half growl. “Now’s not the time.” He said and tried to move away from Jin’s teasing lips and from his own desires.

“Who cares?” Jin said with a low and teasing voice and then laughed as he pulled again on Kazuya’s hands, making the younger fall over him and settle above Jin, their bodies tangled into a big mess. “We always have time for us.” He added with the same voice, as he lifted his head a little and tauntingly licked Kazuya’s lips, grinning madly and waiting for a response as his hands settled themselves on Kazuya’s butt, keeping him there.

Kazuya gave into the sudden sensations, his body greedily wanting more and his own mind lusting over the man under him. He closed his eyes and his hands slowly found their way on Jin’s chest, then to his shoulders before losing themselves in Jin’s hair, gripping tightly the soft locks. “You’re mad, I tell you.” He whispered hoarsely and a moment later he opened his eyes. Their brown color was burning gold. “But I am mad too.” Kazuya added and pulled onto Jin’s hair as their mouths crushed and took themselves into a needy kiss, one that sent fire in both of their bodies, making them ache with desire.

Jin laughed into the kiss and pulled Kazuya even closer, one of his hands slipping into his back pocket while the other one sneaked between their bodies, unbuckling Kazuya’s belt and undoing the button on them, pulling down the zipper and palming the younger’s hard-on through the fabric of his boxers. “I love you.” He whispered in the silence of the room where only their moans could be heard as Jin started to slowly move his hand and push down Kazuya’s jeans.

This was wrong, they were going to be late again, Kazuya thought, but Jin was once more kissing him, was once more whispering words of love and - oh, this was so good. He wriggled his legs to help Jin undress him of his pants and when they were finally out of the way, their legs tangled up and the rough sensations of Jin’s jeans on his skin send shivers down Kazuya’s spine. He gave a slow roll of his hips, need pulsing in his member, lust taking control his body. He let got of Jin’s hair and his hands were hurried in their touches as they slipped quickly under Jin’s shirt, wanting to feel the smooth skin of his lover’s body.

Their mouths parted a little, their breaths entwining uneven and harsh. Kazuya’s eyes were fogged with raw desire as he looked at Jin. “I -” the younger said with a whisper and for a moment his heart raced but not because of lust. “- need you.” He finally completed and kissed Jin’s soft lips once more, his tongue sliding past them and into his hot and wet cavern, meeting halfway with Jin’s tongue and slowly, then fiercely starting a battle of dominance.

Time was ticking faster than ever for the two lovers and Jin speeded up the pace, pulling down Kazuya’s underwear and giving a few slow and taunting strokes to his length, enjoying the friction between his hand and Kazuya’s cock. He grabbed it with his index and thumb fingers and caressed its length with a slow and maddening pace as their lips continued their battle and their hearts tried to regain their breaths. He swallowed Kazuya’s moan as his hand started to move faster and dug his nails into the younger’s ass cheek as he tried to give Kazuya his release.

Kazuya arched his body in welcoming the sudden climax, his mind blanking and his whole being swept by waves of pleasure, shuddering and intensely burning. He was up high, soaring above white clouds before falling into the arms of a complete release, coming warm in Jin’s hand.

“Jin…” was the name that rolled from Kazuya’s lips in the eve of orgasm. It had more meaning to it than Kazuya was capable to realize in that moment.

The younger was panting hard as he collapsed on Jin, the sound of pleasure still ringing in his ears, the touches of climax still lingering on his body. He kissed Jin’s jaw and his hand stopped above Jin’s beating fast heart.

“Better now?” Jin asked with a playful and teasing tone, letting his hand covered with cum fall limp on the bed while he used the other one to brush some hair from Kazuya’s face to see him better, a bright smiled dancing on his lips.

Kazuya looked back embarrassed. “Yes…” he muttered, not being able to hold back a smile. “But you shouldn’t have… I was going to be fine one way or another.” He then mumbled half audibly half not as he hid his face in the curve of Jin’s neck. And he felt like asking if Jin was okay and if he should do something, but he was too embarrassed and in a way, they would be so late and Director Matsumoto would have their heads served on a tray. Yes, better not ask. There was still tonight and Kazuya would have to come up with something better than a hand job, maybe…

“But I wanted to.” Jin pouted, his arm now catching Kazuya’s waist and keeping him close to his body. “Besides, I love to hear you moaning my name and see you trembling into his arms.” He added with a mischievous smirk and a husky voice.

Kazuya looked up at Jin and glared a little. “I was sure that you wanted my moans since that striptease night.” He sighed dramatically and lifted his body a bit, now supporting his weight on one elbow. “Come on, let’s get clean and ready to go or there’ll be blood today.” Kazuya said and pecked Jin’s lips.

“I’m already sure it will be.” Jin laughed, but not denied the younger’s words. He kissed Kazuya back and stood up with the younger in his arms, pecking his lips again and nibbling a little on them. “You can borrow a shirt from my closet if you want.” He added thoughtfully, looking at Kazuya’s shirt which had a few spots of cum on it. It didn’t look as bad as Jin’s though.

“Shit.” Kazuya muttered, now inspecting both of their clothes. Then he laughed. “We’re a bit of a mess, aren’t we?” He asked and moved to the edge of the bed. “I’ll borrow from you then.” He winked lovingly and jumped off the bed as Jin also stood up and headed to the bathroom to clean himself a little.

He emerged from there with a fresh shirt and smiled adoringly at Kazuya when he saw him dressed with one of his shirts - albeit a little too big for his tiny body but still looking damn good on him - sneaking behind his back and hugging the boy from behind who was busy trying on a vest to hide the fact that these weren’t his clothes. “I love seeing you dressed in my clothes.” Jin breathed into Kazuya’s ear, feeling too happy for no reason.

Kazuya shivered out of pleasure and smiled as he turned in Jin’s arms, encircling his neck. “Because it makes me yours?” he asked teasingly, his eyes sparkling with joy. “And…” Kazuya leaned and sniffed a bit at Jin’s neck. “I love your smell. It’s on the clothes too.” He continued, feeling a bit embarrassed about saying such things.

“And I love you bathing in my scent.” Jin replied with a totally non-embarrassed voice as he tightened his hold on Kazuya. “And yeah,” he then added, looking a bit pensive, “it does make you seem mine.” He said with an overjoyed tone, happy that Kazuya had been the one to think and feel such a thing.

Kazuya laughed and kissed Jin fully on the lips. “You’re so much cheesier than me.” He grinned and slipped away from Jin’s embrace. “We’d better go.” He said and looked at his new outfit. “By the way, I’m taking the vest too.” He smiled childishly and tilted his head in a cute way.

“Consider it a present.” Jin smiled and took Kazuya’s hand into his as they headed to the door, feeling happy and giggly and not caring about anything else.

Well, that is… until they got to work and faced one furious Matsumoto Jun.

“What do you think you’re doing?” the director hissed, appearing from nowhere in front of them and looking more than annoyed. He was clenching his fists in order to not hit something or someone and the looks of happiness on Jin’s and Kazuya’s faces weren’t doing any good.

“Um, hi.” Jin replied with a half voice, not daring to say anything else. He knew how scary Jun could be when he was pissed off. And this time he seemed to have passed that limit seeing at they were over an hour late and the filming had been delayed because of this.

But Kazuya wasn’t Jin to be easily forgiven and he immediately bowed in front of Jun, the happy aura surrounding him now gone. “We’re very sorry for being late.” He said with a humble and regretful voice. “I couldn’t get on time at Jin’s place.” He added, still bent in front of Jun.

“And why should you be at Jin’s place?” the director inquired, still keeping his voice low but already attracting enough attention. After all, they all knew who’s fault it was that the shooting had been delayed. “I thought Ueda came back and he was supposed to wake your lazy ass!” he demanded to know, looking with a fierce gaze at the older, but Jin just whimpered and didn’t say anything.

Kazuya knew he had made a mistake. He side glanced at Jin before he looked at Jun, now standing straight again. “Ueda-san wasn’t able to come and wake Jin and I was called instead, since I have been Jin’s assistant before.” Kazuya replied calmly, hoping that his lie won’t be discovered. Even if it wasn’t entirely a lie and he hadn’t been called by Ueda, but by Jin. Damn, all of this was his fault for letting himself be aroused by a naked Jin first thing in the morning.

Jun groaned, obviously not buying Kazuya’s lie. He didn’t say anything more as he turned his back on them and walked off, stopping only after a few steps to look back at the two who hadn’t moved. “Why are you still standing there?!” he barked and didn’t wait for a response as he took off again. Jin was the first one to snap out of it and grabbed Kazuya’s arm, pulling the younger with him and after Jun.

“I’m sorry, Jun, I promise it won’t happen again.” Jin said as soon as they were in the intimacy of his dressing room, the door closed behind them. He kind of knew that Jun had chosen to change their location to not have people hearing him scream but he was still grateful for saving them from an embarrassment bigger than their careers.

“This is the second time this happens!!” Jun immediately proceed to yell, finally snapping and happy to get out all the stress from his system. “I ignored the first time you were late because I knew it wasn’t your fault that you’re an idiot and can’t wake up on time, but this!” he stopped and took a deep breath, his eyes looking accusingly at the two of them. “I won’t allow you to be late because you can’t keep your dick in your pants!” he scolded them, taking fully advantage that Jin had asked a sound-proof room to keep the others from hearing him sing.

“It wasn’t like that!” Jin hurried to defend themselves, stepping in front of Kazuya who remained shocked and had no idea how to respond to such a thing.

“And how was it then?” Jun demanded to know, narrowing his eyes at Jin and stomping his foot in expectance. “Yeah, that’s what I thought too.” He then continued when Jin didn’t answer and preferred to just study his shoes. “You know,” the director added, “I expected something like this from you because I know you’re an airhead and you simply can’t follow the rules, even if I really hoped you had grown up while you were in States.” He said and Jin felt the need to lower his head in shame, biting his lips to not say anything back because he knew Jun was right and he didn’t have the right to comment on anything. “But I never expected something like this from you, Kamenashi-kun.” Jun confessed and looked with disappointed eyes at the boy in question.

Kazuya stiffened and lowered his head immediately, not baring to look at Jun and his disappointed expression. He gulped, not knowing what to say as he had never been into such a situation before. And especially when the director he was working for had said the exact reason for which they were late. Well, not quite exactly because it had been only Kazuya the one not capable of keeping his dick in his pants and for the first time, Jin was innocent. “I’m sorry.” The younger said, his voice hoarse and raw. “I was careless and have mixed business with private matters. It will never happen again.” He continued with a strained voice and you could sense the definitiveness in his voice. It was clear that Kazuya won’t allow a second mistake, at least this type of mistake.

“A sorry can’t bring back the time we have lost.” Jun attacked again, not feeling satisfied at all with their kicked puppy looks. “And you,” he continued as he looked at Jin who froze in his spot as the eyes of Matsumoto settled only on him, “you should know better than to forget the reason why you are here and why you are doing this movie.” He said and Jin sighed.

Of course he knew, it was on his mind all along. The Japanese fans were forgetting about him and saying that he didn’t care enough for his country to even make a visit and a few appearances at TV shows. He didn’t want that, he didn’t like that the thoughts of the ones who had been supporting him since he was a newbie were turning against him because of something that wasn’t true. Because while he indeed hated a lot of things of Japan, he loved his country and was proud to be a Japanese singer and actor and perform for the Japanese people.

“I already said I’m sorry.” Was the only thing he said, his attitude looking a bit defiant as he raised his gaze and stared at the director. “And I’ll never be late again, I swear.” He added with a little pleading tone now, even if he was starting to get a little mad. “But it wasn’t Kazuya’s fault, so please don’t punish him for this.” Jin continued with a serious and honest voice, his eyes sparkling with determination.

“No.” Kazuya interfered and looked briefly at Jin. “Jin was my responsibility and I messed up. I have to make up for this.” He said and turned to Jun and bowed once more.

The director wriggled up his nose as a disapproval for their behaviors. “Nothing will come out of this if you take the blame off each other.” He said with a tired sigh. “What’s done is done and nothing can be repaired now but you can take full responsibility of your actions.”

“We already did, Jun, we said we’re sorry and this won’t happen again. If I come late again, lock me on the studio to be sure that it will be the last time.” He then added with a determined expression on his face, taking a step forward and now completely shielding Kazuya from the director’s gaze, silently trying to ask him a favor.

Jun sighed again. “Kamenashi-kun, you can go.”

Kazuya looked at Jin from the back, having contradictory feelings. He liked the fact that Jin was trying to protect him, but in the same time he knew he had done wrong and he didn’t need to be protected like this. But the director had been clear in his tone, so - unwillingly - he took a step aside and bowed to his boss. “I’m sorry.” He said and then turned, briefly touching Jin’s fingers as if he wanted to tell him that he will be alright. That it was enough and that he was grateful. But could he say this much through just one brush of the fingertips?

“Thanks.” The actor said as soon as the door closed behind him, not sparing even one glance on Kazuya and keeping his attention on Jun.

“How can you be so irresponsible, Jin?!” Matsumoto completely ignored his words of gratitude and continued to scold him. “You know that this movie is really important to me!” he then complained, ruffling his hair in exasperation. He still couldn’t believe that something like this happened. He had tried to call Jin a million of times but the actor never answered. Jun had started to panic and called Ueda only to find out that he was asked to come earlier than usual and had left before him, letting Jin to drive alone to work. After an hour passed, he was already so worried that he was prepared to call to the police when he saw him coming. He wasn’t alone.

And Jun snapped.

“I know and I’m sorry.” Jin said with a small voice, lowering his head in shame. Of course he knew how important it was for his friend and that he wished this movie to be perfect and not have any problems. Jin even knew that Matsumoto had been kind of excited to work with him because he knew how good of an actor was Jin and the fact that he was coming back to Japan after all these years was going to attract even more publicity. “But, really, it was my fault.” He then continued with a firm voice. “I told him that it doesn’t matter if we’re late and kind of… distracted him to forget about this.” Jin added with a guilty look, his voice losing its vigor as the words rolled of his lips.

“It doesn’t really matter, Jin.” The director sighed and took a seat on the couch. “We had the stage prepared for the scenes in which you were going to act and now we lost almost two hours because of this. This just means that we’ll have to film until late in the night.” He pursed his lips in annoyance, clearly not content with this conclusion. After all, Matsumoto was known for his ability of coordinating his time so that he would never have to do all-nighters.

Jin bit his lips and approached his friend a little reluctantly, taking a seat next to him. “I’m sorry.” He repeated, sounding really honest and regretful. “I swear that it won’t happen again and I won’t fool around until we finish the movie.” The actor promised and a small smile appeared on Jun’s lips.

“Was it at least worth it?” he asked with a light teasing in his voice.

“Kazuya is always worth it.” Jin replied without a second thought, his smile wide and happy. “I’d do anything for him and I still don’t know how did I get here.” He added with a slight laugh.

“As long as your sex life is fulfilled.” Jun rolled his eyes and stood up, visibly more forgiving and in a better mood. “Though I swear that I’ll cut your balls if this happens again.” He then proceeded to add with a sweet voice, tilting his head a little and looking at the younger with innocent eyes.

Jin gaped. “You wouldn’t!”

“Try me.” Jun dared him. “Oh, and you have two minutes to get dressed and three for make-up or I’ll make you sleep at the studio to make up for the lost time.” He threatened the actor and left the dressing room with a smile on his lips which disappeared as soon as other people saw him.

Jin groaned and cursed for his life.