Missed a phone call from Mom- two or three calls, last was at around 12:30 AM, which is weird cause she usually goes to bed by 9 PM. I immediately called when I got to my cell phone (which was *trying* to charge in my car)... feeling very apprehensive and worried. She answered, and now the only thing I can remember about the conversation is her ( Read more... )

fuck! I hate trying to fake sleep when someone else awakes... another reason why i like living alone! time to curl up in bed....

Ever since I can remember, I have always wanted a camcorder. Within the last few months it has come to my attention that I *need* one. Not just wanting. Digital, video, at this point I don't care. Luke's and Mary's deaths have definitely made me want to capture more friend moments on video. God how I miss them both. Just goes to show you, you never ( Read more... )

reading friend's journals... beautiful accounts of Rose's party (that I didn't arrive at until 1:15 AM-ish...) I swear, i will be late to my own funeral! and I'm not kidding. My family has said the same thing for years ( Read more... )

why do I always come onto livejournal when I'm too tired to post much-needed (long posts?
so, until I write about it, another preview (through pictures):
Rose's birthday party... Heaven and Hell...

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Hearing about something that I was supposed to be (should have been?) a part of... and it hurts. A lot. More than I will actually ever admit to anyone but myself. I'm not sure how to address the party (parties?) semi-responsible(?) for excluding me (long story)... but I am in pain, especially knowing what I have missed. And several people wondering ( Read more... )

Just found out yesterday about a party I am invited to... and now I only have until Saturday night to decide how to costume myself... I've had a couple ideas (which I am considering), but nothing **brilliant ( Read more... )

An hour or two ago, I had several conversations with my Mom that I've been wanting to have for about the past 15 years, but every time I would approach any of the subjects, she would either avoid the topic, say "There's nothing to say about that", or tell me, "Maybe when you're older" (even though then, now, and in between I have always felt that I ( Read more... )

But much more Absinthe than Subversion. Let's say about 80/20?
(A couple questions warranted more than one answer, so here are both of my results:)

You Are Subversion!

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